I think, he's the only guy in my entire 18 yrs of life who mattered that much to me. I think, i am serious this time. Have you ever experienced the feeling of wanting to see someone for every single second? Do you hate to have holidays just because during holidays, you dont get to see him? Do you feel like smsing him every tiny little bits of things that happened to you? DO you save every single smses he sents you?Do you spend all day thinking of his face, trying to figure out how you look in his eyes? Do you...if you feel this way towards a guy, like me, you are in love. Yes, I am quite sure this time, that i like, or love him, to the extent that yesterday, the first thing i did when i got home was to check my mail and see if he e-mailed me instead of checking for UOB's e-mail. ha, i get sad when i see him talking to other girls. I feel small and insignificant infront of him, he's like the star in the sky, whom i can only admire from afar. I don't know why, when we work together, i will be very unnatural and especially fierce to him.A failed attempt to cover up my infatuation? ha, what a childish wangmo.I am troubled now, his birthday is coming, everyone around me tells me to take it as an opportunity to reveal my love to him. But im scared, i never thought im such a coward until today. I really don't dare, what if he doesn't like me? I will add burdens to his already ultra busy school life. He's in the leadership position in every area, class, CCAs...his studies are good, his photographic skills very pro, he plays violine like a...i don't know how to explain, just that...he's the kind of guy who's most charming when he's concentrating. I duno, i feel like keeping this special feeling to my heart only, i don't want to reveal it, i know that, if i tell him, even he doesnt like me, he will not say it out straight away, he will care for my feelings and blame himself. And i don't want him to feel like that...i don't want him to feel burdened because of my feelings, tough karen says he treats me differently from others, i dont have the confidence to believe it, he's so good. I duno, but, i really do feel the pain, deep in my heart, it's really painful when you cant tell the one whom you love with all your heart, whose life you care more than your own life that you LOVE him. But it's my choice, i'll rather suffer alone than to make him troubled..
有一朵云，被一支猎人射偏的箭射中了。她没有喊痛，还暗暗地感到欢喜，她以为是被爱神的箭射中了，于是，她便爱着他，身不由己浑身是伤地爱着他。。。为了他的幸福，她宁愿自己痛苦着。只要他能幸福快乐，她就会觉得满足，在她以后的生命中，虽没有他的身影，但却永远有着一个属于他的角落。。。永远在那里。。。
