These days after returning from beijing, my life has been filled with all sorts of problems, the delay of visa processing and collection, the rejection for accommodation. Life has never been so difficult. Besides all these, the only comforting part is the meeting friends episodes. Well, I met up with karen, jon and hannah to play badminton ysd, the point is not the playing of badminton actually, though it did help to relax our nervous mind a little...to me at least, the impt thing is that i get to talk to them, friends...haha...the feeling of someone else knows you and someone else in another corner of the world rmbs you.
As for today, a BIGGER SURPRISE came. SiJie and i had this "meet up" date before I flew to beijing. So we arranged to meet up today...i was late and lost and duno where's mac in Plaza Sing ( this is very common for mo) so while I was waiting for sj to come to 'pick me up' i saw someone who looks like jy on the escalator, on a second look, i confirmed my instinct. And I was like 'omg, please god, let him not see me, he must be with his friends...shit!" and then i pretended to look at my hp to sms sj so as to 'miss out' jy...and the nxt thing that happened...he and 'his friends' stopped at in front of me!
ARHHHHHHHHHH..so it's really jiayi, and then ian, and then si jie, it took me almost a century to realise that im not dreaming. my gosh...it's really...oh well...considering that it's the only time that im not 'involved' in planning any of the 'ps exco gathering' hahaha, and im happily shocked by dear sj's surprise. She really did make me feel very very very touched and blessed...it's as if she saw through my mind, putting ian aside first, i was really troubling over if I should meet jy one last time before i go off..but in the end i called the idea off...cos it's gona be awkward and weird. And here he is, standing right in front of me!
yepyep...i must really thank all of them, ian and sj are in uni, busy like bees...jy..he just finished his prelim and....alvl's still ahead..well really, being with them is like back to the old times, when we used to have random gatherings, of course, most of them are organised by me to give myself a chance to ask jy out.
haha...their presents, sj's book+cd+bookmark+card,really really close to my heart haha, esp the song and the card. And the card, can see that she has so much to say and same here if i were to write her a card. the spaces wont be enough, we've been through so many so many things together, good and bad, happy and sad, to be honest, in ps exco, we used to be each other's comfort and support, if not, i doubt that we'll ever pull through some of the darkest and moody days. We are so different, she's so sensible and organised and im so crazy and random, but se do get along very well. haha, it's funny that we started off by calling each other 'karen's friend' and now my friendship with her is as strong as mine with karen. Things always happen with a nice twist, if she never chose to return to nj, we probably wont have to chance to get to know each other le. Well, even being in the exco, was a random and surprise for both of us, i forgot when exactly we've became this close, but i rmb we ate out at macs with Li Anf who wanted to brain wash us, and at that time sj and i were alr. very close alr and since then, we identified the black sheep in the exco.haha. actually, to be honest, i hate ps as much as i love it, it has too many people whom i cant forget, too much memories which i cant erase off from my mind. both the good and the bad made up my life in nj, filled it up and gave me the chance to be able to reminisce the past. Life in ps was almost like drama show gg on, almost everyday there'll be things happening, and with people with contrasting personalities, things get pretty darmatic at times. we had shouting, quarrelling, back stabbing, suspicion, super long caustic, sarcastic and accusative(if there's such a word) emails...longggggggggg exco meetings, crying, trash out sessions, writing notes blah blah...but these are just some bad parts, but we did have some fun actually. we celebrated birthdays, for sj, ian and jy...(oh shit...no myself one??!!!! shit...), we had outing to little india, botanic garden, changi airport, national day kallang river and..esplanade, gd friday shooting at the church, esplanade, clark quay..and many others, i think our batch had the most group outings yeah...we managed to pull together a few exco movie and outing sessions, and we had the stupid SISC which is irritating but did help us to bond quite a bit, not talking abt we having 2 camps, the bonding camp and the seminar camp...we had our artfest and uob printing photo session, we had our own darkrm session. Really, i gained so much from this club, both technique wise and friendship wise...really...ii must say, though i always say i regret joining this club, it actually completed my jc life, without the experience in ps, my jc life would probably be left with quite a bit of blanks here and there. And sijie, is the one who gave me support all the time, her notes, her help and her words...haiz, i wish i could pack her in my luggage and bring her over to london with me!
And of course, thanks to ian's chocolate, it's almost expected cos he's the chocolate type of guy, he's grown more matured...more handsome and haha, he slimmed down...haha, nicer hair colour too. There used to be many things btw us, but im glad it's all over...haha...
As for jy, it's 100% that he din prepare presents hahaha, but the fact that he's there it's alr. a huge present. haha, anw he juz had prelims and he's not the type who'll prepare present :), well, i think he's changed, both physically and mentally. from the appearance, his dressing sense's getting better, lesser hair but slimmed down a lot...a lot..haha..still as short as ever but haha...charming as well ( at least mo thinks so). But, he's not like him last time le, or maybe i changed? i duno, he feels more foreign, like a stranger..haha...guess that's the point when we finally drift away...from even being good friends? haha, but again, like i never really did force anything upon him when i had strong affections for him, i wont expect too much from him as well, afterall, his heart has no place for me. Just hope that he can be blessed with love from someone else, who's a nice person and will not abuse his niceness...haha...and like again, i'm pretty sure that he'll have a special place in my heart as always, though my feelings for him will slowly change from love/affection to something that's more lasting and precious, or so i hope...i think...something beyond friendship or love or affection. haha, yep and same as the case with ian, jy and i went lots too, till now i still feel a tinge of sadness for having to bury those memories now...it's over..and im not glad that's it's over but i guess we all have to move on with life. And I hope jy too, understands the importance of moving, im talking abt his case with his gal, if it's not getting anywhere, then may be he shld consider giving it all up. Haha, not that im hoping for anything but it's for his own good i guess. I gona find my prince charming somewhere else, maybe in london.
