My shots today...

Celebration

Blue Heaven

Solitude

I went for Photoshoot today, sometimes I really wonder if happiness is really that easy to achieve. I felt happy today, don't roll your eyes, it is a universally known fact that mo hardly feels happy anyday. Mo was an unhappy kid, she was an unhappy student, she was an unhappy junior, she was an unhappy exco, she was an unhappy senior and she was an unhappy teacher, but today, for once, she is a happy photographer.

Oh well, here's the thing with photography, it makes people feel good. It has this strange magic, for every step we take, we are afraid of losses. And now, with my photographs, they serve as a testimony of my actions, my thoughts, of every step that I took. I felt as if I was writing down a history of my own today, marking down or recording my life using my camera.

So I went to the City centre, Stood beside the Merlion and watched the cargo ships and the containers. My mind was blank, I am feeling a little emo these days. Is it because that I know I will be leaving? May be the impulsion to go for a photoshoot was due to my longing for this city, my attachment for this place has made me feel a strong urge to take some of it with me.

I met karen, we sat down, we talked. Like always, like the old time, we had so much fun...Karen is just different, we could be different in terms of personalities but, we just seem to have so much to tell each other, so much to share, and today, after being close friends for four years and a possible 4 more years in close proximity...our friendship will by no means grow, because, by then, we will have so much memories together...I somehow just feel that she is one of the most important person in my life, so it is indeed that friends are the family we chose for ourselves.

Bought Birthday present for Mr Loh...a Parker pen..hope he likes it.

Had a very..thought provoking chat with one of my photog senior tonight...he makes me think through once more, on all the recent big decisions i've made...

zeminith says (PM 11:34):how do you feel about moving to london to study?

mo: says (PM 11:35):CONFUSED

mo: says (PM 11:35):haha

mo: says (PM 11:35):excited

mo: says (PM 11:35):emo

mo: says (PM 11:35):mixed feelings

zeminith says (PM 11:37):hmm

zeminith says (PM 11:37):how so?

zeminith says (PM 11:37):and compared to coming to singapore?

mo: says (PM 11:38):haha very diff, when i came to spore, i was too young to understand anything

mo: says (PM 11:38):it wasnt even my decision to come here

mo: says (PM 11:38):whereas now, it is my own decision to go to london

mo: says (PM 11:39):and also i am fully aware of what will be lost and what i will gain through this experience

mo: says (PM 11:39):but we humans always feel hard to leave our own comfort zone

mo: says (PM 11:39):don't we?

zeminith says (PM 11:40):hmm

zeminith says (PM 11:40):maybe

zeminith says (PM 11:41):some people are special

mo: says (PM 11:41):why and who?

mo: says (PM 11:41):haha

zeminith says (PM 11:42):you know about circular motion? you tie a ball to a string than you start spinning it in circles.

zeminith says (PM 11:42):when the string snaps, the ball will shoot out

zeminith says (PM 11:43):ay,sometimes feel that been walking in circles for a long time already mo: says (PM 11:43):sighz but it is life don't you see that?

zeminith says (PM 11:43):guess so

zeminith says (PM 11:47):what's your plans for the future?

zeminith says (PM 11:47):why london, and after that?

mo: says (PM 11:48):London, to be practical and realistic, I believe that it is safer and also, I prefer UK to US because I don't really like a too "freestyle" world

mo: says (PM 11:49):I need some restrictions, not that I like to be caged up but, you know, some traditional rules are not that bad

mo: says (PM 11:49):keep my mind in peace

mo: says (PM 11:49):as for why London, I came from china's capital, naturally i love capitals..haha..especially the ones with rich history

mo: says (PM 11:49):and it's near paris

mo: says (PM 11:50):On top of all these, it has good universities inside it

mo: says (PM 11:50):haha reasons good enough?

zeminith says (PM 11:50):aye

mo: says (PM 11:52):?

zeminith says (PM11:54):interesting

zeminith says (PM 11:54):london capital, a place with lots of history

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and so we continued..

life..isn't always...( )

life...is always uncertain

I am looking forward to a day..........( )

A day which I don't know when..........