It was a dreadful day ysd.

thank god it's all over.

ANyway, having completed 1 scholarship interview with IE singapore, 1 scholarship writing test with SPH. I guess i'm completely drained. Why?? cos i duno how i faired and i am too tired to think about it. I am not really allowed to discuss the writing test qestions but anyhow, i would like to express my utmost discontentment with the stringent criteria attached to the chinese test. No choices were given for us to choose the essay topics, we have to be effectively bilingual because we have to translate an English essay into Chinese. and on top of that, we have to understand internet language. How fantastic, being a reporter, u need to be a superman. no, im sorry, i'm not one. i'm just a lazy gal who wants high pay and wana go overseas to study without making my parents pay, so that i could break free of their control.

so i received moe's call ysd, asking me to go for the psychometric test on sat, and to be honest, i was profoundly pissed off as psc simply juz referred my psc scholarship application str. to moe, without considering that my first choice is MFA, MFA!!!!! what the hell, and actually, teaching was my 4th choice.

and life in bxxxx gxxxx school, makes me feel even more strongly about not wanting to be a teacher. not because of the stu, but the teachers, the system, the hierarchy and all. SO what if you are good and capable and complete ur tasks with great efficiency? as long as u are a junior tcher, no matter how unreasonable a senior tcher can be, u have to listen to her. she's insane, and so are my supervisors who wana me to consider seriously abt the heirarchy system in schools. well, i dun give a freaking damn about it, be it ms loi..looi..whatever that horrible surname she has, im not gona get over it, and if im an employee, im gona give trouble to her, if i the boss, im gona fire her. whatever, but im determined to stay on, why? haha, of course, i cant juz suffer and then leave and then give them a nice time right? i will get what i deserves, till the time it makes me feel happy and find a perfect time to resign.

yes.

settled.