Life has been tough, but no matter what I'm hanging on.

First, teaching was...well, the students are nice, i had a great time in 4C last week, and i enjoyed myself immensely in 4B today, and, haha, marcus was nice too. Well, shafihan has became nice to me as well, and i met the legendery Yi Fa and he's nice too. I seem to get on pretty well with all these gang leaders. hmm...but, i dun like the express classes, and so do they. I was so sian abt going into the sec3 express classes lah, so when i went there, i will just write on the board the instructions and then add on one line :whoever does not hand in the work by the end of the lesson, go straight to DM's office. then they think that I was threatening them for nothing, but as if they have behaved well, they were so hypocritical. yeah, they were so noisy when I went in. so in the end, i changed my strategy, it's not worth shouting at them, cos they are a group of people who do not really listen...
but overall, i am fine with them, i am rather strict with the lower sec ppl as i believe that they have to be disciplined early if not they'll juz become like what the upper sec stu are now. and it is worrying to see that in this sch, the lower sec ppl are getting more and more wild...

oh, but still, i am still very very pissed off with the sch. why? today, it happened again, the relief duties were not written clearly, when i was in 2D, i was given teh instruction: do comprehension on exercise bk. AND GUESS WHAT, THEY NEVER TELL ME WHICH COMPREHENSION AND WHAT'S WORSE, THE EXERCISE BK WAS NOT EVEN WITH THE STUDENTS. fine, then nxt lesson, the instruction was: 4/1-4/4 geog. then i went to follow 4/1 and climed up to 3rd floor only to realise that it's not 4/1-4/4 but 4/3-4/4, cant the person juz be more alert and write the right class? sighz, i am profoundly disappointed. Yesterday, had a full day no break. sometimes i really do wonder, how come this sch seems to need so many relief teachers? how come the permanant teachers seem to take MC so frequently that they seem to take MC like they take their meals, 3 times a day? whatever, okay, the other explanation can be that they face too much mental distraught in sch so much so it worsened their immune system and made them vulnerable to every single bacteria or virus present on Earth.
whichever the case, i am really amused. Ysd had like 12 tchers on MC< and today 10. there's one tcher whome the student say she takes MC every fortnightly. and another tcher took such a long mc that the stu are getting supremely sian about doing work without a tcher marking them. poor students, i really like the students more, i pity them.

nahhhh...and...ysd...everytime i was back in nj, i had to reevaluate my understanding of someone, he's just...very hard to...yeah...and if whatever long hao said was right, i am not going to forgive him. I mean i wont be pissed if he has a new gal, or gets attached but i would like myself to be one of the first fews to know abt it and not like, being told by some third parties like long hao. and i do not like him flirting with many girls. really, then it hurts my ego, yeah, and hurts my judgement of him, i mean, it will be an insult to me. yep yep..nahh...now's not the time to think abt that. the talk with mu feng made me think more abt it, may be it's really a habit. i am not used to being informed of his life from others. and also, lh said sth that jy had much a better life without me this year, jy enjoyed his life so much. wow, he better be right, then i will make sure i disappear completely from jy's life in order to make him enjoy his own life even better. what bloody idiots guys are.

and most of all, i have someone who's caring towards me, who likes me more than i like him. so, why the heck? not as if im going to haunt jy for the rest of his life, come on, be real, i'm living my life and he's living his own, we are both on parallel lines, no more intersections. so, i dun find it awkward to talk to him abt my likings for him last time and i dun want him to keep from me his likings for others. at least, i want to know who i lost it to right?

and and and and and........just heard that something unpleasant happened to yx, so...probably she wont be there on sun. hmm...i feel so bad and and and...i suspect that jy wont like the bday present that we prepared for him...but..it's already better than beijing 101.