but the most important things is, i am totally, absolutely disillusioned with shen jiayi. who does he think he is? he's one who doesnt admit his mistakes and is as stubborn as a cow. in any case, he never will believe he's in the wrong. being pretentious and alert, careful in everything he says. all these, i used to see positively, now appears to be very very irritating and ugly. finally, when the infatuation is gone, the person becomes nothing, all i can see is his mistakes, his problems. his arrogance and ego. I cant stand it, i dun understand how i allowed him to be like this in front of me for 2 years, i regretted so much, i've wasted a whole good 1.5 years of time on this worthless person. now then i realise why he's never liked by anyone, why is he so unpopular among my friends and his peers, working partners, why is he so unsuccessful when it comes to interpersonal relations. he is too self centered, who does he think he's fooling around with? i can be blinded for a while but not forever. It will be a day when i finally will get clear of who he is, and i think the day came pretty fast. I find it hard to tolerate his behaviour. Probably the feeling is mutual but who the hell cares, it's real, this is the end, he really needs to reflect inwards for the reason why he simply pisses people off just so easily. it cant be any other person's problem except his!
so i was, walking alone, aimlessly on orchard road at night...dun feel like going home, just walked and walked, picked up mr lee's call, then talk to him mindlessly, then hang up, then continued walking, then sat down, ate dinner, continued walking again, dun feel like going home, was letting my mind going through all that had happened between the 1.5 years, btw jy and i, i've had had enough, guess he's feeling the same.
没有所谓的开始
也就无所谓结束
so then again, told him not to appear for the outing on 14th feb. he used to be the one i look forward to the most, now, he's the one whom i never want to see ever again.
yes, i am pissed with myself. for being so dumb.
so 14th feb 2008 will be a lonely night for me, but then again, it will be a refreshing new start for me again. someone is OUT. and i mean it.
And...by the way... I GOT CONDITIONAL OFFER FROM
LONDON SCHOOL OF ECONOMICS AND POLITICAL SCIENCE!
INTERNATIONAL RELATIONS!
conditions attached: AAB....
