It used to be smooth sailing, my life..used to be. For most of the time, i get what i wish to acquire. But this time, one of the few major setbacks i ever experienced in life. No, it's not about love. I used to think that not being loved by him is the only failure in my entire whole life, until today, i realised how trivial it is in comparison to my ambition. I never felt so down before, it's just five lines of letter but took me a whole 15 minutes to finish reading it, i wasn't expecting this, esp when i've already gotten the approving nods from reknowned universities such as LSE, Leeds and UCL.

I am very frank now, I am not prepared for this. not prepared for any similar setbacks in future. no, i'm confused now, am i overly confident? No, but this just makes me hate that particular ***** ******** place even more, i am not going back to that building ever again, no way, i dun like politics, nor do i like suck ups. even here at my workplace, i see suck ups, i see busybodies, i see politics, i see rumour makers, i see ugly stuff...but...no, im side tracking now...

i have not really planned for my future have i? so it seemed that i did, but no, so he is right, perhaps, i shld change major, to something finance, something practical like law, if, of course, my grades could make it. but, now im so unsure, As is gona be release soon, will it be like Olevels again? a major disappointment? or will it be..even worse? i'm getting nervous now. all these emo stuff.

yes im feeling down, but it's just different this time, i dun feel like telling ppl how i felt...or rather, i duno how to express this feeling, may be, i shld indulge in work. I did a full 9 periods of marks recording for all the upper class art students, and i did beading...wiring, jewel thing, i am exhausted today.

did demo in class


ring and earrings..


was half way through my book mark..




both physically and phychologically.

give me a break.

please