Today i went to school and slacked. Early in the morning, tot i was going to be late but i wasnt. And then went to art room and to my SURPRISE it is locked. So i got damn hell pissed off, and i went down to the atrium, thr. the stairs at the fountain, anyway, i looked super pissed. And then met mrs nair at the line, she's quite amused by my "email" on sat. night.
Went to take blue slip with Mrs Nair, and then to my suayness, we met sharon phua. She's such a bitch! she started questioning me about why am i taking the blue slip and things like that, and kind of embarrassed mrs nair in front of her, so lack of respect of her colleagues. sighz...she deserved to be hanged.
Anyway...after that female beast was gone, mrs nair happily signed the blue slip and let me go, then i went for pe, it was damn fun, i love handball:).
Then had art...was really frustrated with it, saw jy, and passed him my written "2nd wish"...we chatted quite happily at first, then we reached a point where he says that he can't sign the thing because he cant make sure that he wont fall sick, and wad the hell! and then after a while, i felt really weird, so i went into the darkroom and asked the rest of the ppl to get out and talked to him individually. I was serious, i was almost going to cry la. I asked him, why that we've been friends for so long and that he still doesnt understand me? why that he cant even just be a little less serious about things,i asked him why he dun wana sign. He said he think that such things are not necessary. so...if things that i deem necessary are unnecessary to you, then i really wonder why can are still friends. it's funny. so i laughed, and went out, and got duper pissed and sad...so i went to ceramics, and then cried and cried...i was so pissed with myself.
i knew he is selfish and self centered to a large extent, but i tot, after i've done so much for him, at least he might reciprocate a bit..like..say...if im always crazy, coming out with mad ideas, and if he's always sensible and serious, why cant he just be "crazy" for once and agree with my crazy idea for once juz to...simply make me feel happy for once???cant he see that im in such a bad mood these days? as a friend, he has not contributed anything towards this friendshipt, why am i obliged to be the one who's always pumping in for this friendship? if it's so hard to sustain, if it's so hard for him just to think for me a little more, then i guess i have nothing more to say. it's the end then. He fucked his way thr. he sucked his way up to the teachers, and he's damn hell well-liked and yeah, of course he doesnt need me to care for him, he's such a superb person, then why the hell am i doing all these? go and die la.
anyway, next time, in future, it will mean that, "got jy no wang mo, got wang mo no jy" over my dead body man!!!
I. HATE. SHEN. JIAYI.
