Today is funny. My parents can't wait for me to go for the body screening. SO i went there early in the morning. Really early, and i din eat breakfast T.T...cos mum said shld not eat anything, might affect the result,she's juz refusing to believe the truth. Trying to think that the last test is inaccurate? i doubt it. Anyway, im not afraid, so what...everyone's destined to die, it's just a matter of time, some live to a longer life while some live to a shorter life. No big deal, i kept on asking myself, what if i were to die tmr, will i have any regrets? will i miss anyone or anything on this Earth? and the ans is kind of pathetic. sighz...
The process was cool...i went into the room, and the nurse rubbed and did all the work in a super skilled manner, i did not feel any pain...in a split second and then it's done. how amazing. but the later part is kind of messy...because, my blood cant seem to stop...weird? weird. oops...may be there's really something wrong with me, the nurse looked at me in a weird way. so what...
Then went to the doc, he listened to my heart, before that, he asked if i have any health problem...and i told him NO. im not sure why i emphasized on the NO. may be deep inside, im also refusing to admit the truth? may be i also rather believe im healthy. actually i am, why shld i say i have problem when im perfectly ok right now? who knows...i hate doctors...they might be bluffing me. i still can run, can talk, can do analytical thinking, can.....do a lot of things!...and im gd at table tennis, badminton, soccer, handball, tennis, iceskating, rollerblading...many things! how can i be having any bloody problem??? it must be a mistake.
oh...went to tale x-ray too...checking for wad? duno..and urine...and brain thingy...juz you lie down and then they'move' you into this machine thingy...duno...have to change onto their purple thingy...look like sleeping gown:P...or jap clothes...wadever...i din do those the previous time. ha ha...may be this time they'll tell me i have brain cancer! ha ha...wadever...wadever the case, im not gona stay in hospital...not gona wait to die...
oh........how i hope tmr never comes.....
i need time...i still have many things not done...what if...i die before i could tell him i love him??? shit shit...duno why...my life is turning into an obvious cliche..like a Korean TV drama....sighz...serects are meant to be buried??? 也许这个"我爱你"的秘密真的会随我长眠于地下也说不定呢。。。
死亡。。很可怕吗？
