sighz....it's been so long again since i last blogged. not my fault, there's a few times that i actually felt like posting but the stupid server did not want to load, so whenever there's problem, blame the system. yeah, that's the right thing to do. Well for the past...1 months or so, many many many things happened. i went to malaysia with the sph people, made friends, shopped, had fun over there. although the living condition was....worse than bad, we managed to really have fun and laugh a lot. well...we played the "free hugs" game and it was so fun, and i found that the westeners are juz so super duper friendly laz, i love the uncles, they are really sweet and cute and everything nice!
and then...yeah...came back, had greenlink painting mural sessions, and also....common test's over. but, but, my 19th birthday was realli realli very disappointing!for this birthday, i received lots of wishes and presents and much more attention than i wanted but then only person that i really care about disappointed me so much. i dun even expect a present from him, i juz want him to wish me happy birthday and then....later...he finally gave the belated happy birthday wish, which was...a bit the too late for me. during art lesson he came over and said in a whisper"happy birthday"...what is this? why? never mind, now i've come to realise that he just takes me as a mere working partner that's all. and...even when i was sick, his care and concern came belated and mixed with work stuff. fine then. im just so disappointed, somewhere in my body aches...i think it's the heart.
and then, almost immediately, i fell sick on the next day. really sick. fever all the time and then followed by gastric flu. i thought i was going to die, really, it really feels sucks when one gets sick, i've never been so sick for a long time already, and i wonder if is it because im getting old or just because i was too tired, exhausted and stressed or may be im just too disappointed by him on monday? i duno, well, life's damn sad, and the saddest part is that life chooses us and not we choose life. sighz....
