So today is the day for final presentation to the school management, for all the hardworks, taking photos, videos, editing, we realised that modern technology can juz fail you at the very moment when u need it the most. this was how it went, we were doing some last minute editng for the video on the sch comp, 20 min before the presentation, we tried to save it, but somehow, the video juz cant be saved...you need 766min..this is ridiculous, we tried all methods...CD, thumbdrive, sdcard...nothing...it cant even be saved on the desktop..-_-''', so we went into the conference room, totally demoralised, pissed and unprepared, who the hell knows wad's gonna happen to the 6+ minutes that's originally designed for the video? we presented, we tried our best, the supervisors and p and vp are pretty nice la, smiling all the way..so it seems that we passed our assessments, erm, the extending of our internship part is funny, Mdm Tay is very straightforward, she's so cute, she told us that, to put simple, they welcome us as interns cos we will be then, paid by moe, but if we want to be relief tchers, then too bad, no money.cos the sch has to pay. hahaha...anyway...we did raise some points lah, regarding relif tching, how the present tchers made it even harder for us when they dun collect the hw the nxt day, making the stu think that wadever work given by the relief tchers are unimportant...-_-'''

and...i struck lottery today, got 3c and 4c...sigh...


actually, lots of things happened in the past few days, i'm really too tired to recount, but one incident made me felt like crying...and one of the other interns told me that when she talked to her parents about her experiences here, she talked and talked and then burst into tears...and...for me, when i went to complain to mr teo, i also talked and talked the up to a point my voice was choked with emotions, it's really hard..i dun think im good enough to be a tcher, i am very lost about how i want to continue now...so...i kept on drawing...trying to draw, and eventually, i realised im quite "hollow" now, in the sense that, even drawing cant bring me any much happiness...i use to feel really happy last time, is it true that, as u get old, u get more and more unhappy? may be it's just me...







So...here's wad i did to my sketch book, one day, i hope i can step out of the shadow...the unhappy memories of nj aep and hold a paintbrush again, but now, for the time being, i can't, felt like crying whenever i try to paint...im too traumatised...the power of a teacher, evil power, up till now i believe he still did not feel sorry for what he had done to me, it's worse than killing me, because, he killed my passion for art...he killed it...how am i going to face my paintings in future? how am i going to face it? how? how? how? i duno...i no longer know anything, i no longer care about anything very much now...it's all been too painful for me, i hope, i just hope i could forget about all these...forget about them...

I am shocked to realise that I have sore throat again this morning, seems that I am never going to recover from this cold ever again, it's becoming like a cycle. So on my way to school, I hoped I could get a manageable class.

Well, luck always seem to run dry whenever I need it the most, I got to relief 4 periods of pe classes, and to make the matter worse, I got 4B again. A class that i never want to step in in future. When I was even half way walking towards their classroom, i could see them swarming towards me, that very moment i felt like turning and running away from them. Later, I spent most of my energy trying to make sense to them that they cannot have their pe lesson because their pe tcher is on mc, i cant believe that sec4 students could be so immatured. anyway, reluctantly they returned to their classroom, and the moment i stepped into the classroom, i decided to ignore them, just like the way they ignored me, since reasons cant make them release who they are, what they should do, then may be silence could. and wow, it did work, to my wildest believes, it realli did work, they became much quieter, probably because they could not get any attention from me even if they do funny things, cos i am determined to treat them as transparent.

so, with these 2 periods, I happily completed 2 of my drawings...pencil drawings of flowers. Here they are...





Incomplete..to be continued


You know wad, finally i've come to realise the inseparable relationship between painting/drawing and me. It helps me to relief my stress and my unhappiness, and at the end of the day, after I've completed my work, nothing matters more than it, so i'll forget about all the unhappy and ugly stuff...i love art..that's all i can say.

So today is the Olevel release day, seeing the nervous students waiting for their results...it seems so familiar, just about 2 years ago, I was among the thousands of kids waiting for my olevel results and the trauma still stays in mind memories...I cant forget the disappointment that I've felt when i saw my results, I was among one of the better ones for prelims and i think im the only few ones who scored lower in Olevel than in prelim. Hope History wont repeat itself for my Alevels, but...history always repeats itself...sigh...what should i do if i dun score well?

BGSS did well this year, i cant believe that their physics(pure) is like, 77.8 percent distinction! wow, almost all subjects improved, art was...ehhh...30+% distinction? haha...good job BGSS! Keep up! :)

Asked mr low, he told me that DHS did very well, much better, better than our year.congrats dunman high!

《苏幕遮.绝情》
断愁绪，空山居，天涯旧痛，浸染入秋意。
缘尽纷飞誓不续，时近寒冬，问他可寻觅？
缈苍穹，淡别离，此情已去，愿君多回忆。
我欲孤身走四季，悲恨相续，漠然无耳语。




I don't want to say Goodbye
Let the satars shine through
I don't want to say Goodbye
All I want to do is Live with you...

Went back to nj ysd, was a tiring journey back there, took me ard1.5 hrs to reach. Thanks to jiayi for opening the darkrm. anyway, met up with junzhan and started work right away. Bunt half way i went out to have a walk ard the school that once belonged to me...well, it seems different yet..so familiar.

met mr loh at the library, I AM SO HAPPY TO SEE HIM, trust me, he's juz so so so so so nice, had a long chat with him. really shld meet up with him sometimes soon, like may be tmr? haha.

Went back to dm and continued the documentation with junzhan, we did this until almost 10pm, well, junzhan and i are both perfectionists and he's very slow and im very fussy. we tried all ways to get the best lightings, including spoiling torchlight and taking off saftlight stuff...wellwellwell...haha...oh...the best part of ysd was jiayi's joke. well, it's not a joke actually. he rushed back fro..."duno where" to lock up dm only to realise that we are not yet done, but he said he really have to rush home so he decided to give the key to us then we'll hide it somewhere for him to retrieve it the nxt morning. he told us to put it on top of the red safelight, and rmb to leave a chair outside...we tot it was to function as some signs or what then jy said, the chair is to be there so that he could use it to reach for the key tmr...wah piang eh!!! hahaha...that's a gd one, it was juz too funny...his sense of humour has realli improved! but at the end, we actually realised that 1 chair is actually too short for him cos even junzhan has to tiptoe on the chair in order to put the key...so..gd luck to jy.

today is another bad day in tching, continued reliefing 1/3 for english and the kids juz refuse to do their works so i got pissed off and dragged them out of class and lectured 3 boys. sighz....

很多想法~，很多心理话~
很多想法，很多心里话。不知对谁说？周围的人太熟悉了，熟悉也未免是些好事。他们对你了如指掌，完全了解你的思想，完全掌握你的模式，我需要一个和我保持距离，听懂我的意思，能站在我的立场帮我参谋的人。
朋友很多了，朋友不少了。我的生活因他们而丰富起来不少。我谢谢他们，但我又知道这“浮华”的背后磨去了我很多灵锐的东西，纯洁的东西，单纯的想法，甚至异想天开，滑稽的笑话。
你说我长大了吗？我说我变老了。呵呵，2008年，我二十了。虽然还没有过生日，但生命的蜕变已经在我体内感受到了；思想的“成熟”已经在我脑海内蔓延开了；灵魂的升华已经在我躯体上飘然了了。
我变老了。~~呵呵~
都说20是一个青春年华，我知道，我明白。但总有种东西告诉我你变了很多。我不想从女孩变成女人。直到如今才切身体会到原来是如此怀念有幼稚的童年，青少年。
少年不识愁滋味，爱上层楼。爱上层楼，为赋新词强说愁。
而今识尽愁滋味，欲说还休，欲说还休，却道天凉好个秋。
这就是多少代人只有经历过来的“少壮不努力，老大徒伤悲了”。
其实说这么多，有些跑题了。我本想说........
有很多话，很多想法，不知如何说，不知对谁说？感慨“好孩子，还是自己领悟，警醒吧”。

我不是觉得不幸福，我身边有很多人，多的我有些顾及不过来。我知道这些浮华的背后是一半的虚无，因为你面对他们，你无法预知未来，你也不知道最后到底什么会是属于你，什么又终将会离开你。现在面对他们又有一种束手无策，无能为力的心虚。
害怕自己看到将来，若只有掌控现在，又出现“人无远虑，必有近忧”的担心和后怕。在这畏畏缩缩中，摸索前进着我的生活，我的有限生命，有限生活。

发现如今人们都很爱写东西，换句话说是敲东西。于是诞生了博客, my space，等等等等还有很多我不知道的东西。把人们联系再一起。这种联系产生了平台，写日志，写心情，贴图片，发照片。放佛网络上的家园才是自己心灵栖息的净土，在这里才是思想回归的乐园。到最后，又希望每一个人都看到，欢迎回帖，踩上几脚，坐个沙发，帮忙顶贴的更是感谢连连。殊不知，在这些为了给人看的文字间，到底是否是他的真实想法，还是写来.....给人们看看。说了这么多，我自己也是使用者之一，也重复着如上的步骤：注册，登陆，账户，密码，查看，更新......循循复复。这也许就叫做：假作真时真亦假，真作假时假亦真。

我的生活：迷惘与信念；积极与乐观；飘忽与执着；一切一切，每时每刻，都在上演着舞台幕剧，开幕，上场；谢幕，下台。唯一不知道观众是谁，其实，观众是自己，人生如戏，演给自己而已。

So it's another monday, monday blues?

Early in the morning, missed my bus, forgot to bring my history book. But luckily, reached school on time and realised that my supervisor is on MC. Well, that's how I got my full day relief job, Mr Lee gave Mrs Choo's entire timetable to me, so I'm supposed to teach SS, Hist and even Geog and English. OOps, not teach but relief, yeah, hope that the students are gona be nice to me later.

Had Sushi in the morning, was surprised at my own changes, just barely a year ealier i was still resisting all kinds of jap food.

Back from having 6 periods of classes now. Exhausted, yes, and i wasnt even teaching. sigh, never knew that teaching can be so hard. well,4/1 was a good class, a bit noisy but they will do their works. but 4B was juz a group of monkeys, some of them are older than me, and they wont listen to anyone..no one..no way..they gang up with 4A and loitered btween these 2 classes...sigh, then mr teo came and he caned one of the boys...wow...it's the first time i see a caning case!

then..followed by 4/3..english lesson, sighsighsigh...im juz so tired...

总觉得有些人或者事物就在你眼前流过 而你却捕捉不到他们 这是为什么呢? 是上天对你开的玩笑 亦或是神对你的考验? 我不知道,也不想知道.或许我们早已习惯了这种流逝而已经忘记去问为什么了吧....为什么有那么多值得珍惜的东西从我们眼前流过呢? 是因为我们不够努力还是我们根本就没有努力而只是想一想就放弃了呢?也许二者都有吧.

在这世上唯一不需要努力就能获得的东西就是年龄了..所以凡事都要努力去尝试一下吧 那样才不会给自己留个遗憾啊..但凡是都要量力而行啊(这句话不是在抽自己嘴吧吗,算了 反正也是胡写呢),要是差距太大了就不要勉强自己了啊.

所谓放弃该放弃的是一种成长,放弃不该放弃的是一种无奈,不放弃该放弃的是一种无知,而不放弃不该放弃的是一种执着.总之抓住你身边能够抓住的人或事物,放弃该放弃的东西..知道你自己内心真正想要的东西是什么,那才是你的最有解(我的最优有在何处呢..)

逃避不一定躲得过
面对不一定最难过
孤单不一定不快乐
得到不一定能长久
失去不一定不再拥有
你可能因为某个理由而伤心难过
但你却能找个理由让自己快乐

down with flue...

Im not sure how life is going to be for me, it seems, as i am approaching 20 years old in 2 months time, i am becoming more and more confused about my life. I might seem to be the ever confident girl boasting in front of you how she thinks she can be a future politician, BUT...im actually the one whose most uncertain about almost everything.

I am a failure in a lot of things.

Life is just unfair and can never be fair, the strong ones will triumph while the weak ones will slowly disappear...the competition is cruel but it's REAL.

After i started teaching, finally i realised the meaning of being in the society, i cant be myself, just cant. and on top of that, i just felt that life doesnt always go the way i want it to go, this is to say that i KNOW it already, felt it, experienced it, so it is no longer just an abstract saying that i always hear from my parents.

As an arts person, i wont deny that i am sentimental, volatile? well, i prefer not to use a word that has negative indications but...emotional yes. i cant forget about something or somebody easily, as long as that thing or that persons has appeared in my life and became important for a period of time, it will not be forgotten. bad, yes, think it's very bad for me. Right now im trying hard to forget about someone, forget about the gd times i spent with him, forget about the good things that he made learn. But it's just so hard...i just hope..one day, i will finally be able to do it, i believe forgetting can be hard, but it is never impossible to forget...may be, i shld just not try so hard so that it might be easier?


I'm a gal with dreams, i want to be let go of, i no longer want to force myself to achieving anything,i want to live in my dreamland...i am really tired..

Had a long chat with karen ysd at pizza hut, our topics ranged from memories in the old schools like dhs and nj, relationships, marriage and future careers. felt really happy to talk to friends, i mean real gd and clos friends. Though i was not feeling well, i kept talking on and on...

well, when we talked abt relationships, it juz developed from gossips to serious views, we started off by relating to tcher's relationships and marriages, in the end we concluded the theory that a relationship tends to last longer and more sweet if it is the male partner who loves the female partner more. Look at mr low and mr loh's marriages, we tot they are unhappy, and they seem to be the cases where the female was the one who's more initiative in the relationship. of course the ideal situation wld be that both parties love each other very well...but...if's not that smooth sailing and easy to have a perfect relationship and even harder to maintain a marriage. I always believe that a relationship is between 2 persons while a marriage is between 2 families, so it is never easy, now i dun want to get married alr.

anyway...had flu this morning, felt really bad...but life's easier for me today. only have 2 lessons! hahaha, and mr muhammad is nicer to me, probably because that's the last day cos tmr he's gg for reservist alr. but bad news came later when i got to know that i have to relief a bio class, 2 periods, then have to go for assembly and then staff meeting and departmental meetings...-_-''' my nose isnt exactly cooperating as it's been 'running' all the time, used up many packets of tissue papers...(guess i've killed a few trees by now)...

the lesson was okay asi had 1/3, the express sec 3 best class, triple science, rather manageable and they did their hm promptly. so i had quite a gd time chatting with them, when they asked abt my sec sch and jc, they gave a long loud..."WOW" and for the first time i felt so proud of my schools...(academic wise la, meaning for the first time i realised i'm not a bad stu...ppl look up to me.. :) ) and DO U KNOW THAT THERE'S THIS GUY WHOSE NAME IS JAIYI?! JIAYI YOU KNOW! and i juz kept on starring at his name tag...wow...what a coincidence. :)

then had assembly, to say the truth, that's really dead boring! they talked abt bully cases, and the characteristics of bullys then i somehow realised that i really do possess some of the traits there,SO I WAS A BULLY BACK IN NJ? ! wow...yeah, if i am, then probably u can call shen jiayi as the victim. =/

staff meeting was fun as a tcher celebrated her baby's fullmonth then bought puffs and cakes for us to eat, hmmmm yummy! how i hope i wasnt sick! then the meeting was about some Action Research, AR, then mr raymond something something showed us in the form of 'DEAL OR NO DEAL' quite funny, he looks like a crazy scientist! hhahaaha.

departmental meeting that followed was a joke as well, well , cant say it's a joke but it's all very funny...we did craftmaking--lantern! we folded ang bao then very fun, chatted and laughed. then at the end mr muhammad said have to record minute, then mdm radnah and i were like 'WAD?! HOW TO RECORD? ALL WE DID WERE JUZ CRAFTSMAKING AND CHATTING!" then mr muhammad said in a very serious tone: 1, trigger activity--craftsmaking, 2, sharing of experiences by intern, tcher and supervisor (it's actually chatting -_-''') hahahahaha

so fun...nah...hope tmr is another gd day, i wana RECOVER!

16/1/08

This is pissing me off. early in the morning while i was having my 'post lesson conference' with my supervisor, he told me that someone has feedback to him about me. rumours and rumours. anyway, im 120% sure that it is the old-ugly-single woman who did that. I was chatting with jeffery in my staff room while waiting for the rain to stop and typing my blog at the same time. I cursed and sweared abt LPG and she gasped at it, well to me it was ok cos i only said i want him to be raped by woman...(guess she'll feeling the pain cos she havent had a taste of man yet and she wants to be the raper i guess), it is none of her business that i said that and on top of that, she's not even supposed to appear in my staff room at all! RUBBISH.

And my sup told me that i shld be careful of what i say and be aware of the environment that im in. To be honest, i have been a very quiet and nice and obedient intern for the past 1+ weeks never had i tried to talk back to my sup, but today, after he said this, i straightaway told him that it is my human right to perform freedom of speech even if the content or choice of words might be crude. and i told him right in his face that i understand that as a tcher, i have to set as an example for my students but it does not mean i cannot say things that i want to say in my private time at my private space. I told him that the tcher who talked to him about me is the one who is not observing the conduct code of the tching profession as she had eavesdropped on my conversation with jeffery and how the hell could she still have the face to complain about me? she really must have nothing better to do and leads a terribly boring and dull life that she has to find entertainment in probing into someone else's life!

Did some sketches of stuff and fashion design...

this is flower...




cockle










I went back to nj ysd to collect the fashion books from ms lu. yk went out to the sidegate to fetch me (wad a gd junior) but my impressions of juniors worsened when i saw the state that ps was in. Super untidy, messy and smelly. Okay, i dun care about who is the boss of the darkrm now, i was the 'boss' for the pass 1 yr and i cant stand it. rmb the times when ppl used to complain that wangmo's dm is not as tidy as shengde's dm? k, i agree, but well, come and look at the present one, it is the champion, dm is juz like a huge rubbish bin,literally! look at all the rubbish (including the present excos and the real rubbish like bottles, food wrappers) that dm is having? oh man, felt like killing them. But I have no authority to scold them i know, cos i've alr. 'retired', k fine, let them die like this, this is a batch that doesnt learn, then be it.

Saw jiayi of course, as fat and short and stressed and dumb like usual. I duno how i shld face him, friends? probably not, i hate him, seriously, wont forgive him for...well...not the 'not liking me' part but more for the 'i want to be ur friend but actually i dun give a damn' attitude. so what? i guess i am not really dying to make friends with him again, am i? may be he's juz like this? then guess we shldnt be friends cos i've got enough introvert and careful and quiet friends le, like sj, bel and karen, but all of them can be very interesting and funny when u get to know them better, but seems that jy is juz the old jy since the first day i got to know him. he's either juz a boring person or rather he's not willing to let me see his interesting side. in any case it doesnt seem to be a gd thing for me...

oh...took photos with junzhan, very funny, he's in love! oh my god! he wants to go after a gal, and i must say that she's a nice gal la, very talented, but soft and cute kind, yeah, suits him better. my futer sis in law? haha...well, but junzhan muz learn how to speak up, always mumbling to himself is not a very gd thing if he is planning to go after a gal..hmmm...and he's so slow in doing stuff la, we left nj at ard 8pm...and in the end nothing was done, we decided to go back again on fri to take all over again! -_-''' and HE MADE ME MISS 2 BUSES BECAUSE OF HIS SLOWNESS!!!!!!!! hahha...welllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll

AND ONE MORE THING, I WANA ANNOUNCE TO THE WHOLE WORLD THAT I HATE LEE PHENG GUAN! HE'S THE SUCKIEST FUCKIEST TCHER I'VE EVER SEEN IN MY ENTIRE WHOLE LIFE! U KNOW WAD HE DID TO MY OIL PAINTING? HE DRAGGED IT OUT OF THE FIRST FLOOR CERAMICS ROOM AND PUT IT ON THE OUTEST PART, THEN LET IT GET SHOWERED BY THE THUNDERSTORM! HE'S SIMPLY NOT MAKING SENSE! WHEN I TOOK IT TO DM AND ASKED JY TO HELP ME HIDE IT, HE REALISED THAT THERE'S A LIZARD IN IT AND ALSO...RAINWATER! LPG SIMPLY SUCK LIKE HELL...SUCKS...I DUN HATE HIM, I LOATHE HIM! IM GONA DO STH!

OH as for today, started off as a bad day cos throat not feeling well, but today is my lesson observationa mahz...so i tried to do some stuff to prepare...then had the lesson, well, i tot i did badly, but im sure my preparation is good, but my delivery is a bit rushed, probably because i was nervous. the stu are okay, thanks to mr muhammad...he's estabished the rule and regulations gd enough for me to control the stu...well...welll...welll...anyway, he's nice la, told me that i have the potential to be a gd tcher...hahahaha...he said im safe...hahaha..so so so so so happy!...kk...will continue tmr...OH BY THE WAY, MR MUHAMMAD IS NOT MARRIED! :)

7/1/08

was busy for the past 1+ week...update update and update now....

hahaha, well, lesson havent started here for me yet. but i was asked to brainstorm on how to teach and the tasks are given, like the fist task is to conduct an observation drawing lesson with myself doing demonstration in the beginning. And have to find things that i want them to draw and i believe at the same time, i shld find a thing that i am capable of drawing as well -_-''' if not will be super paiseh. the sup is like mr low's friend so u can imagine his age and of course, ppl like them in the old days have gone through very firm fundation years of drawing, esp for him who was educated in poly, so very skill based ( very unlike to ms lu), so i have to live up to his expectations i guess. He asked me to show my olvel and alevel prep to the students and him, so i showed, he was pretty impressed (to a small extent i guess ) but can see he likes the chicken that i painted...olevel prep de, then he also likes the board that was full of jiayi's faces, and he said that is a very good board, so guess he's the kind who goes for skill, quality than ideas and concepts...=/....

oh he also told me to do demonstrations as often as possible, so as to sharpen my own drawing skills too, in one way it benefited the students as they will be motivated to work hard in order to achieve your standard(provided i do a gd job on the demo), also, theyll respect you more, and in another way, it ensures that you get drawing pratices too so your skills wont become rusty...quite true right? well, my sup, even though he's funny, humourous, mr low's gd friend, but can see he's the more organised and step by step type, fiercer, more discplined and very serious when it comes to work, unlike superman low who seems to have done his things in a joking way (but im not saying he's not serous abt his work la, just different style, one more relaxed while the other is more tense...:( )

in terms of skills, the students here are of course, like what my sup says, not like 'us' meaning not like him and i who are 'born with the skill' -_-''' okay...he's kinda as ego as low but both of them have the substance to be egostical. some students really struggles to get their shapes and outlines right, and i only tch sec 3,4,5 stu cos my sup is the HOD who teach the upper sec..and well, still, i did see a few who are kinda talented who juz need more drillings. the lessons here are much more organised than what i had back in dhs or nj, im not sure if it is because of the tcher's working style (cos u know, mr low is the relax kind while LPG, lu, are the kinda self centered dun care type), have lessons and will scold them and tell them classroom rules every lesson. the studetns are very quiet during class, quite concentrated.mr muhammad made them bring 4B pencil and A3 paper every lesson, and a portfolio huge file to file up every excercise they do, without it one cannot get into artroom ( s far havent happened yet, everyone brought their stuff) then lesson will begin with observation drawing, very good foundation setting training, i wish we had these more often in dhs or nj...rmb that i were just crazily dancing and playing in dhs and nj most of the time? and also, they have to address me as ms wang (most of them juz call me tcher when my sup is not with me) then...

oh ya, when i showed them my preps, yeah...they are impressed but when i start asking them questions, they will be very sian, even friendly chats they also wont reply u...im kinda worried that may be im not suitable as a tcher, and also, im not loud enough, the classes are big, there's 2 artrooms to cater them...then i will only be tching the normal acad and normal tech classes, ysd my sup told me abt a boy in my class who din go to sch for the entire whole last yr, so to be extra patient and careful with him...and one thing im not used to it was that, everytime my sup introduces me, he will talk abt my bg like how 'ms wang is diff from all of you, she's from a very good sch, dunman high, do u all know dunman high? and she graduated with 10 points...very good grade, with art A1, and went on to do AEP in NJC...NJC do you all know???......) yeah, things like that that makes me super paiseh....=/..kk...gotta go observe class le...5periods continuous..:(

11/1/08

oh well, to be true, i havent got time to go online at home yet, for the entire whole week.Basically i am quite packed still, our sch's sec1 orientation would be on nxt friday. Well, ysd was such a tiring day for me, lessons after lessons no free time, then after that got to help set up cca then after that we had staff meeting. the staff meeting lasted for like 3 hrs la, it was information overload i tell u, they announced the pay rise and stuff like that to the teachers and reintroduced the interns(meaning 3 of us). but it was very funny, very fun. at first we were told that the meeting time is 345pm, so at ard 330, we were thinking that we shld go there early so we strolled slowly to the venue only to reach there and realise that the ava is already filled with tchers who took up the best seats 'back seat seats'. and we were like..WOW!...the meeting started off with the principal distributing us curry puffs that she bought for us to eat while having the meeting, she's quite a funny and nice principal, definitely not like mrs cheng, but this one is old and serious as well la. then like, when we asked the supervisors where we shld seat, he said, probably no more good seats le (back seats all taken) so he simply said: come ealier nxt time...who will want to seat in front??? p and vp are there!
hahaha, so funny, like students like that, for the first time we find that tchers are humanised in the sense that they are just like students, during the meeting, when it comes to the pay rise part ppl will "wow" or "cheyyyy" very kiddy...and we just kept laughing (but tried to control a bit too la cos like we sat in the first row...right under her nose) but the principal was very humourous lah, she constantly cracked jokes. then there's this science SH came up to talk, wah..he looks like some crazy scientist..so we laughed again. then my art sup went up to announce the p and vp for the staff welfare committee...he's very funny...he said that they've selected 2 candidates and then they'll go thr.voting to decide who be the p and who be the vp. then he say againt that the guy (one of the candidate) have decided to withdraw from the voting JUST IN CASE THAT HE WINS! wahahahaha...never thot that tchers are also like us, rmb when we choose class chairperson or monitor that time also like this? no wants to be? thenthe guy have 'volunteered' himself to be the vp so the the female tcher took up th p job....hahahahahaha...

oh...aft the the p talked finish, she juz came and sat down beside the person who's beside me...i got so nervous la. but anyway, the whole meeting thing was funny.

today i did a whole lesson plan...then i gave it to my sup to see. this morning early ealry during flagraising my art sup alr. came to me and told me that he had talked to my hist sup that he continues to take me for nxt week and told me that my "lesson" wld be nxt tues, u know that our sups will observe us in one lesson then he or she will grade us right? yeah, so that particular lesson for me will be nxt tues when others are like in the last 2 weeks...-_-'''' im like super strssed and my flu did not fully recover due to the less than humane air con in the staff room!

sigh........................................................im juz feeling that im doomed. oh and sch fees wise, for my uni, it was like pounds 14000 a yr yeah....

nahhhhh have to go and prepare for lesson lesson lesson