My numbers, so accurate!

Do Your Own Numerology Reading
Your Life Path is 3
Your Life Path (sometimes called Destiny) is derived from your birth date. Your Life path is the road you are traveling. It reveals the opportunities and challenges you will face in life. Your Life Path number is the single most important information available in your Personality Chart!
You possess a great talent for creativity and self expression. Many writers, poets, actors and musicians are born under the 3 Life Path. You are witty, possess a gift for gab, and savor the limelight. Your talent for the expressive arts is so abundant that you may well have felt drawn to becoming an artist while still very young. Your artistic abilities can only be developed, however, through discipline and commitment to the true development of your talent. Commitment, concentration and hard work are the only means of bringing forth your talent. Thanks to your gift for self expression, you can be the life of the party, and the center of attention. However, you could easily squander your talent by becoming a social butterfly.
Your creativity is the gift that can give you the comfort and luxury you desire, but not without continual focus and discipline. You are optimistic and possess the resilience to overcome many setbacks. You are socially active, popular, and inspire people with your sunny "happy go lucky" attitude. You can be generous to a fault. Many people born under the 3 Life Path have difficulty handling money because they can be disorganized and not particularly serious about their responsibilities. You are emotional and vulnerable. When hurt, you withdraw into a cloud of silence, eventually emerging from your reticence with jokes and laughter that cover up your true feelings. You can become moody and cynical when depressed. You can succumb to sarcastic remarks, which can be painful to those around you. When used positively, your talent for self expression can be a great inspiration force in the world, uplifting others, and bringing much success and happiness to you.


Do Your Own Numerology Reading
Your Birth Day number is 19
You are highly determined and yearn for independence. You tend to struggle to achieve the degree of self- sufficiency you desire, and may endure considerable frustration in your struggle for independence. The reason: your desire for independence is so strong is that it eclipses so many other balancing perspectives. As the poet John Donne said: "No man is an Island unto himself... We are all bits of the main." This is a central lesson in your life: to learn the difference between the dream of independence and the reality of interdependence.
Your challenge is to achieve a wider degree of perspective on yourself and others. Exchange ideas with others, lest you become insulated and isolated by your own perspective. This can become a kind of prison for you. You can be highly stubborn, which emanates from fear. Try to see that all of life is but an ecosystem, a life cycle delicately balanced in such a way that everyone is supporting. You are highly ambitious and have a strong drive for success and power. Although self confident, you like to be encouraged. You are a hard worker and an important fixture in any enterprise in which you are involved. People are attracted to your deep commitment to your work, and the steadiness with which you do it.
You are a pioneer at heart; you are willing to take risks to get what you desire. As such, you are willing to change your environment often, and even enjoy doing so.
You are demonstrative in your affections and willing to sacrifice for others. You are highly idealistic, but if your ideals fail, you can become bitter and negative. You are very sensitive, with many emotional ups and downs. You tend to find yourself in dramatic situations, yet you like to control your emotions in public and come off as if everything is under control. With your determination and inventive and creative mind you have potential for achievement and financial reward!


Your First Challenge is 2:
About your First Challenge:The duration of the First Challenge usually lasts from birth until approximately the age of 30 to 35.
You are overly sensitive and too aware of other peoples' expectations. You suppress yourself to avoid feeling conspicuous. You can be overwhelmed by self-consciousness. You fear gossip about you. As a result, you become inhibited. All of this results in a suppression of your own individuality and uniqueness. You yearn to blend into the crowd.You let your own feelings and emotions play too big a role. Your hypersensitivity causes fear, timidity and lack of self-confidence. And you experience unnecessary fear and emotional turmoil.Little things seem disproportionately difficult to overcome and sometimes have a paralyzing effect. Jealousy can cause much pain and misunderstanding.These negative aspects of the challenge actually spring in part from positive characteristics you possess, especially your acute awareness and intuition. You are an antennae for other peoples feelings; you know before a word is spoken how they feel.You lack the inner strength to maintain your own center, and try to conform to the prevailing emotional atmosphere.This challenge makes you understanding and compassionate; you have an enormous empathy for the inner turmoil of others and can do much good for people with emotional problems.


Your Second Challenge is 7:
About your Second Challenge:The duration of the Second Challenge usually lasts from age 30/35 to around age 55/60.
You are highly skeptical of anything that cannot be proven to you. You are particularly doubtful of anything having to do with spiritual matters. It is, therefore, difficult for you to find a personal philosophy that would give you peace of mind and insight into the purpose of your life.You repress many of your natural inclinations because they do not fit into your intellectual or rational thinking.You are in need of the part of your being that you are now repressing: the child within.All the characteristics that have to do with the irrational and holistic side of life - spirit, humor, playfulness, and intuition - are being shut out.Your challenge is to find some philosophy and, ideally, a community that will give you additional perspectives, and force you to bring out the many other characteristics that are a fundamental part of you. Otherwise, you risk loneliness and isolation.You have to learn faith. When you consider that most of life is made up of the invisible world - thoughts, emotions, insight, and love - you can begin to appreciate that only a small part of life is within the domain of your senses.You may have too much pride. You may experience a deep and humbling transformation that will set free the inner being you are keeping trapped within you.


Your Third Challenge is 5:
About your Third Challenge:The duration of the Third Challenge is felt throughout your life.
You are in danger of becoming a rolling stone. Your desire to experience and enjoy life can overwhelm every other priority you have. Your need for freedom dominates you. You want to try everything and go everywhere.You must guard against overindulgence - and even dependence upon - alcohol, food, drugs, and sex.You must work at establishing and maintaining long- lasting relationships. Be tolerant and understanding. This will enable you to have people in your life who are more than mere company.You need to discipline your urge to change every situation that does not immediately suit you. Stick with projects, maintain your friendships, don't abandon people or situations the minute they become the slightest bit difficult.If few fives are in the chart you have a fear of change and can not let go of people and situations. This holds you in the past, restricting your growth. Learn to take prudent risks and be more adventurous.

成长

“笑笑自己，但不鄙视自己。只有笑着，才能从从容容地拥有生活。”

记得这是在去年很失意时给自己的鼓励。一转眼，自初院毕业已有大半年了。原以为当A水准成为过去时，我紧张的生方式也会随之告一段落，没想到出了校园的我还是在无止境地忙得团团转。最近终于空闲了下来，有时间可以收拾整理些东西，收拾思绪，整理回忆。


小时候的我，很反感“学海无涯苦作舟”这句话，很向往着有一天能靠岸，结束讨厌的校园生活。如今，“毕业”这个字眼使我感到无比茫然，心就好像是被抽空了似的不知所措。重返昔日的校园，仿佛又再一次听到与朋友的欢笑声。国初还是以前的国初，老师还是以前的老师，只是主角换了，我，不再是以前的我。转身离开，我将那两年的美好，锁在了回忆的时间囊。留下的，是无比的惆怅与眷恋。


小时候喜欢吃李子。青黄色，硬硬的那种，是生李子，咬一口，苦得涩牙；紫红色，软乎乎的那种，是熟透了的李子，吃在嘴里甜得作腻；而那皮色暗黄微呈红晕，将熟未熟的李子则是我的最爱；脆脆的，不涩却酸，上了糖分，但甜而不腻。

就在08年初，我带着三分勇气和七分的稚气踏上了人生新的旅途。就在踏入育青中学的那一刹那，我由之前的学生变成了一位实习教师，对新的生活怀着一份憧憬，一份洋溢的激情。可是，当我意识到不再是学生之时，我感到了彷徨和无助。我用尽力量想把这感觉打跑，可只是徒劳，我连碰都碰不到它。

我也不知道是谁伤害了我，自从长大以后，自从变得不太傻了以后，我总感觉有人在无声地伤害我。也许，所谓的长大，就是意味着要懂得谨小慎微，知道遵守规范。或者说，当一个人学会在众人面前伪装自己的时候，他、她就是长大了。长大了，就要用社会认可的一套准则来活着。

我，不习惯。

我问自己：

前面有阴影，我究竟看到的是晦暗还是背后一直跟着的阳光？

我答到：

我的眼睛是闭着的，我胆怯，所以我什么也看不到。

再问：

外面吹着风，我是无奈地拨动乱发，还是将风筝高高地放上蓝天？

我答到：

风筝的线段了，风筝飘走了。

在离开新加坡前，去到了 national museum 拍摄夜景，夜的美丽，在绚丽灯光的相辅相成下，显得格外温暖。在拍摄时看到了人们猛拍museum全景的样子，不觉感到乏味。我喜欢用不同的方式来捕捉同样事物。。那样的镜头才值得人们去欣赏与沉思。所以，我选择了拍摄museum倒映在这辆红色ferrari的一幕。同样的景物，当我们换一个角度去看，就会得到不同的效果，不仅是摄影，在生活上，也是一样的道理。

这一张照的是全景，所面向这我们的蒲公英的种子粒粒清楚in focus. 整体效果真实、完整但却太锐利。

中间这一张充满了梦幻的感觉，在真实与虚幻之间游荡，无比朦胧。我将面向镜头的外层表面thrown out of focus，关注其内层，reduced the sharpness of the photo，将white balance 设为 cloudy,使得照片的色彩显得更加温暖。

而这张，则原则上与上一张相同，但我不但将蒲公英的内层put into focus也将整体展现了出来。这张要比上一张展现了更多的细节，这样一来，一切，又都不一样了。

同样的，这几张蒲公英的照片也告诉了我们同样的道理。这是我在天坛公园打羽毛球时注意到的一颗孤零零的蒲公英，与其它我曾看过的蒲公英不同的是，它很饱满。它的美足以使我丢下羽毛球拍。虽然没带我的Nikon D80但我相信，好的照片与相机的好坏并没有太直接的联系。就这样，我用傻瓜Canon IXUS60 拍下了这三张蒲公英的照片。虽说都是同一棵蒲公英但每张给人的感觉却大不一样。

Flowers in Beijing

nah...haha...i forgot to talk about the flowers in beijing. It's really pretty, all the new species...nahnahnah...shall upload some photos

Beijing, My love...

Mama, Baba and momo wahahaha...

Damn cool right...I used Nikon D80 with a tripod...ehh...Shutter speed 2s,F9

Another one at Qian Men Da Jie...wow...this is just beijing, you'll feel that it's really awesome..the place where emperors lived...haha...cool..this one shutterspeed longer and higher ISO, i think it's 250

fireworks, i took it the day on 8/8/08 haha...i left birdnest towards the end, and catched the nice fireworks...this is near the Tiananmen...well..inside the stadium...u wont get to see the full view of the fireworks..at least..and i think it's even more diff to capture on lens unless i've got a fisheye which i dun have...-_-''' so...hahaha...coolllll...china's fireworks rocks my socks man!


hahaha...it really feels like home here in Beijing. You wont believe the fantastic lightings in this ancient city. I really do have a mixed feeling while standing in this 'brand new' city. I

know I really miss the good old days in Beijing when you get to see many people walking and playing along the streets...especially the qianmen da jie where people used to sell some 传统小吃 along the way...last time, you get to feel the spirit of beijing more clearly, closely and warmly. The 小吃might not appear to be very hygienic but people are glad to have something to fill their stomaches while walking on the street...everything's in harmony...it's the little tiny details and the less than orderly-like part that made up the what used to be a bustling city. May be my wording's abit wrong, because even as now, beijing is still a vibrant and thriving city...but the feeling is different.

Just like the qianmen da jie, it used to be so crowded, a little dirty and squeeze but that's the nature of it. Now, thanks or no thanks to the olympics, the street was completly cleared, no more small shops, no more 街边小吃 no more crowds...it has became a 'show street' where the authority decorated the place, making it look as if if has returned to the early 1930s period, the new 仿古 buildings, the beautiful lightings and everything all contributed to impress the foreigners in Beijing. But the local Beijing citizens, though thankful of the high-tech advancements that enhanced their lives greatly, are reminiscing the past, they do, feel a sense of loss in their hearts. No matter how clean, how beautifully lit up the city is now, they all knew that they have lost something precious in exchange for these...

Nah...but we understand the need to move on, haiz...but there really needs a balance...the authorities have to understand that, when you demolish something that carries historical significance, then you can't replace it..it's importance, it's meaning was created by the 100s of years of experience...a city like beijing, you can easily come across a piece of stone or a tree that's been there for 1000s of years...they stand as the testimonies of the transformations that this wonderful city has gone through...so...arhh...i duno...but of course, the new things did help to make people see a different side of beijing. Like i went to qianmen da jie last night with my parents, Whatever it is, the nice lightings allowed me to capture quite a few good shots..i simply love my hometown...i can't stop snapping...everywhere's so spectacularly decorated! haha..

The Olympics...is both a good and a bad thing for Beijingers..but whatever it is, we've learnt to accept what's thrusted upon us and we are a city, a country, a race that was and is and will never be defeated...we are always...willing to move on yet, holding tightly to what precious gifts we possessed thousands of years ago...with such spirits, we will go far.

Let's have a comparison...this is 2004 Greece Olympics opening

and below are the pics of 2008 Beijing Olympics

It's been a week in China. I think I will be bored like every other times that I return, but this time, it's really awesome. Beijing seems to have gone through a huge transformation. The roads are clean, the streets and completely filled with fresh flowers, wow, you'll be amazed by the different types of flowers, I've never seen these species when I was young. And of course, the friendly Beijing citizens, everywhere you go, you'll see beijing ppl wearing the volunteer's t-shirts, young and old, you can feel their pride, the Olympics has done a great deal in changing China, esp Beijing. But one thing that did not change, and I most cherish about this city, is it's people's openness, there's no way you are going to feel helpless and lonely here in Beijing...haha, One day, I was kinda bored at home, so I went to the shopping centre, since it's the day that my dad's car can't go on the road ( cos like odd numbered day only odd numbered plate de car can go onto the road) so I took the shopping centre's shuttle bus. Gosh, Last time i really hated taking beijing's public transport cos of the smell and stuff, but this time, the air-con was juz nice and there's no smell, everything's so well done! to add on it, it's the fact that there were around 6 of us on the bus, none of us knew each other beforehand but we chatted as if we were family! like...wow, you can'tdescribe the feeling. It's like, overseas in the western countries and in spore, ppl speak softly and don't ever talk to strangers unnecessarily...but here in beijing, everyone takes everyone as their family! on the bus we were talking about everything under the sun, the aunties and uncles were worrying if i can't cook in london, and they were trying to teach me how to manage the stress of living alone in a foreign country...i so love them lah...hahaha

oh well...of course of course, putting aside the all bright side of beijing and the olympics...i must say that I was a little disappointed with the chinese government, oh well, i can understand their axiety...i can see that they want the olympics to go well vey veyr very badly...but...here's the thing, they have juz crossed the line. In order to keep everything under control, it created lots and lots of inconveniences for the people, though the beijing citizens are very forgiving, i as a...half beijinger can't really take the sort of thing. Like, due to the olympics, anything that's not made it beijing such as furnitures and some food stuff are not allowed to be transported to beijing...-_-''' and...the keep on block this road and block that road...everything's blocked. and they have checks here and checks there.

The most unacceptable thing was the government's fakeness. like that day...i went to watch the olympic relay...and i realised that they actually have arranged audience, and they block all the rest of the 'real audience' who are beijing citizens...damn bad lor...but still, i managed to squeeze my way through and took a few photos..haha...shall upload next time...

went to watch the olympics ysd...opening...nah...not very nice...haiz...but...ppl are impressed...

Up till now...China has clinched 2 GOLDS!!! Yehhhh!!!