Okay, up till now, i've finished all my exams except Art H3 which i do not intend to study until the last minute as i have to focus on completing my course work which is like a piece of shit now.
I really hate prelims, it's so damn hell difficult, my best paper so far is art which is one of the hardest art paper i've ever done in my life. Today just finished SEA hist and math, both are lousy, math is extremely loudy, i cant take it man, and the most outrageous thing is that, out of 5 statistics qns, 4 are the same as the H2 people's paper! what is this man?????
I hate prelims!!!!sucker!
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Saturday, September 15, 2007
I hate her i hater her i hate her i hate her
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The "her" is the one who gave birth to me.
The "her" is the one who gave birth to me.
Friday, September 14, 2007
暗恋
暗恋是喜欢的一种
当他很开心、很高兴的时候,你也会有同样的感觉
当他伤心、痛苦的时候，你的心情也会很沉重,很想安慰他,帮他解忧
他生病了，你会很担心,心里想的都是他
他无意中伤害了你,你会很伤心,会一个人偷偷地流泪
他在你身边时,你会偷偷地看他
他不在你身边时,你总是惦记着他
......
不过，这一切你都不会告诉他，只会默默地在他身边守侯他，不求任何回报,只要他开心、幸福,你就很满足了，就算他喜欢的不是你......
当他很开心、很高兴的时候,你也会有同样的感觉
当他伤心、痛苦的时候，你的心情也会很沉重,很想安慰他,帮他解忧
他生病了，你会很担心,心里想的都是他
他无意中伤害了你,你会很伤心,会一个人偷偷地流泪
他在你身边时,你会偷偷地看他
他不在你身边时,你总是惦记着他
......
不过，这一切你都不会告诉他，只会默默地在他身边守侯他，不求任何回报,只要他开心、幸福,你就很满足了，就算他喜欢的不是你......
怎样的结局？是这样的吗？
是不是关于暗恋的故事都没有好的结局呢？
让我开心又带给我伤心的那个人，让我不断挂念的那个人，我们永远，永远不能在一起。
经常会幻想，如果向他表白了，会是怎样的一个结局，下面，便是其中一个应该最接近现实的结局吧：
这些话的实际意义是：我惧怕你给的爱情，我不需要你的了解，我的心不知何时会向谁打开，但是有一点可以确定，不是现在，不是对你。
他说，除了和你，再没有专门和女生出去过。
他说，如果我们都不捅破这层纸，你还是从我这里得到快乐，而我也会慢慢爱上你。
他说，我喜欢你的个性，独立自强，我也喜欢和你出去玩，可是我真的没有动过心。
他说，你会伤心吗?
他说，如果你愿意，当你不开心，仍可以从我这里得到快乐。
我会伤心。
我不愿意。
我们最后的对话就是这样的，关于两年的暗恋，就在这些对话中结束了。
我还是自私的说出断绝一切联系的决定。
他说，不要，他不想。
可是他看见我哭，还是答应了。
最后的MSN留言删掉。
最后的短信看后删掉，连同号码。
还有邮件地址。
听着这首歌，蒙头在被子中，一边流汗，一边流泪。
睡着了醒来，似乎忘记，但是马上就想起这样的结局，心里很痛。
你永远不和我联系了吗？这句话在耳边不停响起。
永远不再联系，永远不再相见，永远不再爱。
像那种从小说里读到的故事：他们从很久之前就开始彼此寻找，暗恋很多年后仍然可以相遇相爱。真的只是小说。真的只是骗人的。
像现实中这种暗恋，不是我不想坚持，而是我知道这根本是一场徒劳。爱情不是时间久了自然会出现的东西。就像我不能从你那里再得到快乐一样，你也不会有爱上我的那一天，我们，无辜者和付出者，带着暗恋的心而分别的付出者，那心底的爱会借着幻想的翅膀，升华至一个不真实的高度，我不想做这么一个幻想者，我哪怕做一个明明白白的失恋者。
我说，等我说了那句话，你要明确的回答我。
我说，不要装作不知道或者不想说。
我说，时间会留给我们美丽的回忆。
那句话是：
我喜欢你，从我当上执委那刻，同你一同工作开始，一点一点。
我要你明明白白的告诉我，拒绝我，那么我看起来就没有那么可怜。
你只要好好配合我，我就是这样一个别扭的女孩，我只有这样才能很快很快的忘记这些难过。
到最后，你还是那么善良，而我却伤害了你。
我知道你会记得我，一辈子记得有这样一个别扭的，爱着你的女孩，爱着你却要你明明白白拒绝她，放她走。
我不知道你会不会也像我这样流泪，但是我最后还是很谢谢你，谢谢你让我知道，我没有喜欢错人。
所以我们就结束吧。永远。
再见。
让我开心又带给我伤心的那个人，让我不断挂念的那个人，我们永远，永远不能在一起。
经常会幻想，如果向他表白了，会是怎样的一个结局，下面，便是其中一个应该最接近现实的结局吧：
这些话的实际意义是：我惧怕你给的爱情，我不需要你的了解，我的心不知何时会向谁打开，但是有一点可以确定，不是现在，不是对你。
他说，除了和你，再没有专门和女生出去过。
他说，如果我们都不捅破这层纸，你还是从我这里得到快乐，而我也会慢慢爱上你。
他说，我喜欢你的个性，独立自强，我也喜欢和你出去玩，可是我真的没有动过心。
他说，你会伤心吗?
他说，如果你愿意，当你不开心，仍可以从我这里得到快乐。
我会伤心。
我不愿意。
我们最后的对话就是这样的，关于两年的暗恋，就在这些对话中结束了。
我还是自私的说出断绝一切联系的决定。
他说，不要，他不想。
可是他看见我哭，还是答应了。
最后的MSN留言删掉。
最后的短信看后删掉，连同号码。
还有邮件地址。
听着这首歌，蒙头在被子中，一边流汗，一边流泪。
睡着了醒来，似乎忘记，但是马上就想起这样的结局，心里很痛。
你永远不和我联系了吗？这句话在耳边不停响起。
永远不再联系，永远不再相见，永远不再爱。
像那种从小说里读到的故事：他们从很久之前就开始彼此寻找，暗恋很多年后仍然可以相遇相爱。真的只是小说。真的只是骗人的。
像现实中这种暗恋，不是我不想坚持，而是我知道这根本是一场徒劳。爱情不是时间久了自然会出现的东西。就像我不能从你那里再得到快乐一样，你也不会有爱上我的那一天，我们，无辜者和付出者，带着暗恋的心而分别的付出者，那心底的爱会借着幻想的翅膀，升华至一个不真实的高度，我不想做这么一个幻想者，我哪怕做一个明明白白的失恋者。
我说，等我说了那句话，你要明确的回答我。
我说，不要装作不知道或者不想说。
我说，时间会留给我们美丽的回忆。
那句话是：
我喜欢你，从我当上执委那刻，同你一同工作开始，一点一点。
我要你明明白白的告诉我，拒绝我，那么我看起来就没有那么可怜。
你只要好好配合我，我就是这样一个别扭的女孩，我只有这样才能很快很快的忘记这些难过。
到最后，你还是那么善良，而我却伤害了你。
我知道你会记得我，一辈子记得有这样一个别扭的，爱着你的女孩，爱着你却要你明明白白拒绝她，放她走。
我不知道你会不会也像我这样流泪，但是我最后还是很谢谢你，谢谢你让我知道，我没有喜欢错人。
所以我们就结束吧。永远。
再见。
...
人这辈子总得动真格地爱一回吧，我准备失恋一回。
因为
当你爱上了一个人
第一步是失去自我
而接着
就是
失去你爱的人
。。。。。。。。
暗恋的感觉很舒服，很安全，安全地躲在自己的城堡里
“暗恋是一种礼貌，暗地里盖一座城堡”
这座城堡里全都是关于你的一切，王子的画像是你的笑容，而公主的头像却怎么也不敢幻想成是自己的
暗恋是容易满足又安静地在你周围
暗恋是能在人群里一眼就找到你
暗恋是看着你的微笑还要掩盖心潮澎湃
暗恋是无聊时候任何东西都联想到你
暗恋是即使你不说话看到你头像亮着就很安心
暗恋是晚上梦到你却不得不失落醒来
暗恋是你永远不知道我很多时候都有在想你
暗恋是活在梦境里，不需要面对现实，温暖而坚韧得存在着
暗恋不会给对方负担，不会给自己失望
暗恋是一个人的事，不需要被嘲笑被伤害，没有开始，也不会有结束
一个人的角落，想你的一切，虽然有些无奈，可是真的安全
你不需要是个很好的人，不需要值得被爱，不需要很体贴，不需要很绅士，甚至不需要认识我
你是一种安慰，一种简单的存在
暗恋，仅仅只是暗恋，不需要在一起，不需要两情相悦，不需要任何承诺，暗暗盖着你的城堡
所以么，暗恋的人，给自己更多暗恋的借口，为自己的懦弱找到最舒适的方式，为你的他/她盖一座城堡，不过城堡越高越容易塌
被暗恋的人，如果知道了，不要残忍的揭穿，选择暗恋已经是对你最没有威胁的方式了，偶尔一个微笑一个眼神，让他/她把城堡盖得更高，也当作是做善事了
好好享受这份难得的暗恋，安全又温馨的恋............
Thursday, September 13, 2007
懦弱的我
最近为了温书，经常会待到很晚。现在是凌晨两点多，毫无睡意。
厌倦了
不是讨厌，只是觉得很疲惫，不希望人生就这样匆匆忙忙地流逝。读书，我在这上面虚度了十二年了。
累了
看了一部电视剧的结尾，名字很有意境， 《我们无处安放的青春》，巧得很，是我最喜爱的演员陈道明的戏。
看到，女主角几乎在同一时间失去了生命中的两个最重要的男人。父亲的去世，男友的背叛，她该如何活下去？
生命永远是如此，不如意的事情总是接而不断，人类的悲剧，在于我们懂得“感情”，那种在失去某人后才会产生的，被挖空了的感觉，使得我们难以从悲伤中自拔。
忽然转到了令一幕，男主角李然在与另一个女人结婚前的那一刻，受到了来自蒙蒙的快递，里面是一首诗，“希望能化为一滴雨，落在你的掌心中”。。。属于男人的泪水，无声地滑落，悔恨吗？还是无奈？人生中总是有着许许多多的阴错阳差，不小心，你与他便会在人群中擦身而过，缘分，即使选择了出现在你与他之间，也不一定会持久，一个简单的错误，会造成无法弥补的悔恨。
爱情，究竟是个怎样的东西？喜欢，很喜欢嘉易，喜欢他那与生自来的忧郁。他是个在这个时代里少有的有气质的男生。想他，很想他，在夜深人静的夜晚时分，思念越加浓烈。
明知道他并不喜欢自己，为何还要如此执着？在他的世界里，也许我是微不足道的渺小，可是，在我的世界里，他是全部。
常这样幻想着，如果有一天，有机会的话，好想让他抱抱我，只是轻轻地拥抱一下，让我可以感觉到他的体温。记得他曾经说过：“如果有心事，伤心的话，可以随时来找我。”虽然我明白，那只是出于自然的友好，但是，那句话还是让我心动许久。也许，嘉易永远不会了解我对他的心意，但，那份感情我已然付出过，收不回来，但却也不会后悔。
好希望，将来会有个人，能够像我爱他那样深深地爱着我。像在《女主播的故事》里尹理事对善美那样的温柔，那样的爱护，就像守护天使般地保护着她。。让她可以在他面前毫无顾忌地哭泣，欢笑。好想，有个厚实的肩膀可以在我脆弱时让我依靠。。。我，并不坚强。也许，嘉易的肩膀很厚实，但我却不是那靠在他肩膀的人，那份关怀，好像是注定了不是给我的。。。可是。。。
为何，在明白了这许多之后，
我
还是无法放下？
茉
2007年9月13日凌晨三点三十五分
厌倦了
不是讨厌，只是觉得很疲惫，不希望人生就这样匆匆忙忙地流逝。读书，我在这上面虚度了十二年了。
累了
看了一部电视剧的结尾，名字很有意境， 《我们无处安放的青春》，巧得很，是我最喜爱的演员陈道明的戏。
看到，女主角几乎在同一时间失去了生命中的两个最重要的男人。父亲的去世，男友的背叛，她该如何活下去？
生命永远是如此，不如意的事情总是接而不断，人类的悲剧，在于我们懂得“感情”，那种在失去某人后才会产生的，被挖空了的感觉，使得我们难以从悲伤中自拔。
忽然转到了令一幕，男主角李然在与另一个女人结婚前的那一刻，受到了来自蒙蒙的快递，里面是一首诗，“希望能化为一滴雨，落在你的掌心中”。。。属于男人的泪水，无声地滑落，悔恨吗？还是无奈？人生中总是有着许许多多的阴错阳差，不小心，你与他便会在人群中擦身而过，缘分，即使选择了出现在你与他之间，也不一定会持久，一个简单的错误，会造成无法弥补的悔恨。
爱情，究竟是个怎样的东西？喜欢，很喜欢嘉易，喜欢他那与生自来的忧郁。他是个在这个时代里少有的有气质的男生。想他，很想他，在夜深人静的夜晚时分，思念越加浓烈。
明知道他并不喜欢自己，为何还要如此执着？在他的世界里，也许我是微不足道的渺小，可是，在我的世界里，他是全部。
常这样幻想着，如果有一天，有机会的话，好想让他抱抱我，只是轻轻地拥抱一下，让我可以感觉到他的体温。记得他曾经说过：“如果有心事，伤心的话，可以随时来找我。”虽然我明白，那只是出于自然的友好，但是，那句话还是让我心动许久。也许，嘉易永远不会了解我对他的心意，但，那份感情我已然付出过，收不回来，但却也不会后悔。
好希望，将来会有个人，能够像我爱他那样深深地爱着我。像在《女主播的故事》里尹理事对善美那样的温柔，那样的爱护，就像守护天使般地保护着她。。让她可以在他面前毫无顾忌地哭泣，欢笑。好想，有个厚实的肩膀可以在我脆弱时让我依靠。。。我，并不坚强。也许，嘉易的肩膀很厚实，但我却不是那靠在他肩膀的人，那份关怀，好像是注定了不是给我的。。。可是。。。
为何，在明白了这许多之后，
我
还是无法放下？
茉
2007年9月13日凌晨三点三十五分
Monday, September 10, 2007
正宗北京老婆骂老公
场景 ：四合院 ； 人物 ：两口子 ； 时间：一大清早儿
(先运气)“我说你一大老爷们儿家，一大早清儿的就站在当院满嘴跑火车，半点儿不着调，我隔着窗户纸这都运一脑门子气了，您这是唱的哪出儿啊？对，没错，就说你呢。你还别跟我揣着明白装糊涂。原本一老实巴交的人，现在学会耍猫儿腻了，见天皆当街晃荡打油飞，时不时的整出点汤儿事，再不就是胡吃闷睡。你自个儿照照镜子去，好嘛，活的越大越抽抽儿，整个一嘎杂子琉璃球。成天逮谁跟谁扯皮不说吧，办事也没个准谱，交代你屁大点儿的事儿，你说你放了我几回鹰了？和着我那点儿吐沫星子全打了水漂儿了！你瞧你平时那个德行，样儿大了你！装的人五人六儿的，还挺象那么回事的。实际上满肚子的幺呃子，除了整天游手好闲，要嘛就是鼓捣点儿嘎七马八的事儿出来。要是结识了个有点儿来头的，好嘛，你拉多晚儿也得老着脸死命的巴结上。实在闲的发慌，也是跟那帮小混子起哄架秧子，打联联。走在街上看见个半老徐娘你都不错眼珠儿的盯着人家看。哪天遇上个满不吝的，给你一板儿砖，你就知道什么是肝儿颤了。你说你们家老爷子也怪不容易的，千倾地一根苗，还巴望着你能出息，平地扣饼呢。你不但一点长进没有，还成天让老爷子吃挂落儿，给老爷子折腾的五脊六兽的，跟着你转磨磨。一数落儿你几句，你就蹬鼻子上脸，长行市了你，嫌老爷子絮叨儿，车轱辘话来回说。现在塌实了吧？那点儿家底全让你攘秃噜了吧？蹦子儿没有看你还能鼓捣出什么花花肠子来。就欠让你见天皆吃棒子面勃勃，顶多白饶你一碗凉白开遛遛缝儿。还甭跟我耍哩格儿楞。敢情你也有脚底下拌蒜，掰不开镊子的时候儿，平时那大嘴叉子一张不挺能白活的吗？麻利儿着呀，怎么变没嘴儿葫芦儿了？费了半天的吐沫，我也不跟你嚼舌头了，借光儿，我找个豁亮的地儿焖得儿蜜去了。”
(先运气)“我说你一大老爷们儿家，一大早清儿的就站在当院满嘴跑火车，半点儿不着调，我隔着窗户纸这都运一脑门子气了，您这是唱的哪出儿啊？对，没错，就说你呢。你还别跟我揣着明白装糊涂。原本一老实巴交的人，现在学会耍猫儿腻了，见天皆当街晃荡打油飞，时不时的整出点汤儿事，再不就是胡吃闷睡。你自个儿照照镜子去，好嘛，活的越大越抽抽儿，整个一嘎杂子琉璃球。成天逮谁跟谁扯皮不说吧，办事也没个准谱，交代你屁大点儿的事儿，你说你放了我几回鹰了？和着我那点儿吐沫星子全打了水漂儿了！你瞧你平时那个德行，样儿大了你！装的人五人六儿的，还挺象那么回事的。实际上满肚子的幺呃子，除了整天游手好闲，要嘛就是鼓捣点儿嘎七马八的事儿出来。要是结识了个有点儿来头的，好嘛，你拉多晚儿也得老着脸死命的巴结上。实在闲的发慌，也是跟那帮小混子起哄架秧子，打联联。走在街上看见个半老徐娘你都不错眼珠儿的盯着人家看。哪天遇上个满不吝的，给你一板儿砖，你就知道什么是肝儿颤了。你说你们家老爷子也怪不容易的，千倾地一根苗，还巴望着你能出息，平地扣饼呢。你不但一点长进没有，还成天让老爷子吃挂落儿，给老爷子折腾的五脊六兽的，跟着你转磨磨。一数落儿你几句，你就蹬鼻子上脸，长行市了你，嫌老爷子絮叨儿，车轱辘话来回说。现在塌实了吧？那点儿家底全让你攘秃噜了吧？蹦子儿没有看你还能鼓捣出什么花花肠子来。就欠让你见天皆吃棒子面勃勃，顶多白饶你一碗凉白开遛遛缝儿。还甭跟我耍哩格儿楞。敢情你也有脚底下拌蒜，掰不开镊子的时候儿，平时那大嘴叉子一张不挺能白活的吗？麻利儿着呀，怎么变没嘴儿葫芦儿了？费了半天的吐沫，我也不跟你嚼舌头了，借光儿，我找个豁亮的地儿焖得儿蜜去了。”
today is alr. sunday...no...now is monday 0018 am alr. and duno if he's back..see...he din even tell me if he's back...sighz...i duno...may be we are simply not close enough...
WANG MO...STOP THINKING ABT HIM!!! TMR IT'S UR PRELIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO SCREWED THIS TIME...HAVENT EVEN STARTED REVISION...LAST MIN REVISION AGAIN? IM NOT GONA GET THR. IT'S PRELIM...NOT CT....SIGHZ..FELL IN LOVE AT THE WRONG TIME WITH THE WRONG PERSON...
F*** MYSELF...
WANG MO...STOP THINKING ABT HIM!!! TMR IT'S UR PRELIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO SCREWED THIS TIME...HAVENT EVEN STARTED REVISION...LAST MIN REVISION AGAIN? IM NOT GONA GET THR. IT'S PRELIM...NOT CT....SIGHZ..FELL IN LOVE AT THE WRONG TIME WITH THE WRONG PERSON...
F*** MYSELF...
Saturday, September 08, 2007
It's so meeeeeeeeee
Your Score: 8 - the AsserterThanks for taking the test !
you chose AY - your Enneagram type is EIGHT (aka "The Challenger").
"I must be strong"
Asserters are direct, self-reliant, self-confident, and protective.
How to Get Along with Me
Stand up for yourself... and me.
Be confident, strong, and direct.
Don't gossip about me or betray my trust.
Be vulnerable and share your feelings. See and acknowledge my tender, vulnerable side.
Give me space to be alone.
Acknowledge the contributions I make, but don't flatter me.
I often speak in an assertive way. Don't automatically assume it's a personal attack.
When I scream, curse, and stomp around, try to remember that's just the way I am.
What I Like About Being a EIGHT
being independent and self-reliant
being able to take charge and meet challenges head on
being courageous, straightforward, and honest
getting all the enjoyment I can out of life
supporting, empowering, and protecting those close to me
upholding just causes
What's Hard About Being a EIGHT
overwhelming people with my bluntness; scaring them away when I don't intend to
being restless and impatient with others' incompetence
sticking my neck out for people and receiving no appreciation for it
never forgetting injuries or injustices
putting too much pressure on myself
getting high blood pressure when people don't obey the rules or when things don't go right
EIGHTs as Children Often
are independent; have an inner strength and a fighting spirit
are sometimes loners
seize control so they won't be controlled
fugure out others' weaknesses
attack verbally or physically when provoked take charge in the family because they perceive themselves as the strongest, or grow up in difficult or abusive surroundings EIGHTs as Parents
are often loyal, caring, involved, and devoted
are sometimes overprotective
can be demanding, controlling, and rigid
you chose AY - your Enneagram type is EIGHT (aka "The Challenger").
"I must be strong"
Asserters are direct, self-reliant, self-confident, and protective.
How to Get Along with Me
Stand up for yourself... and me.
Be confident, strong, and direct.
Don't gossip about me or betray my trust.
Be vulnerable and share your feelings. See and acknowledge my tender, vulnerable side.
Give me space to be alone.
Acknowledge the contributions I make, but don't flatter me.
I often speak in an assertive way. Don't automatically assume it's a personal attack.
When I scream, curse, and stomp around, try to remember that's just the way I am.
What I Like About Being a EIGHT
being independent and self-reliant
being able to take charge and meet challenges head on
being courageous, straightforward, and honest
getting all the enjoyment I can out of life
supporting, empowering, and protecting those close to me
upholding just causes
What's Hard About Being a EIGHT
overwhelming people with my bluntness; scaring them away when I don't intend to
being restless and impatient with others' incompetence
sticking my neck out for people and receiving no appreciation for it
never forgetting injuries or injustices
putting too much pressure on myself
getting high blood pressure when people don't obey the rules or when things don't go right
EIGHTs as Children Often
are independent; have an inner strength and a fighting spirit
are sometimes loners
seize control so they won't be controlled
fugure out others' weaknesses
attack verbally or physically when provoked take charge in the family because they perceive themselves as the strongest, or grow up in difficult or abusive surroundings EIGHTs as Parents
are often loyal, caring, involved, and devoted
are sometimes overprotective
can be demanding, controlling, and rigid
Friday, September 07, 2007
Luciano Pavarotti dead at 71
An arena artist whose talents lured love from far beyond the narrow confines of the traditional classical music audience, and from whose rotund body rose one of the great voices of the 20th century.
That's all i can say...sighz...was checking for any updates of political news and then somehow, came across this, it was the news from 4 hours ago...it was at first really shocking to me, as in, my dad used to talk about that time when he watched Pavarotti and the other 2 tenors' performance a few years ago...and since young, i they were made familiar to me due to my dad's love for...erm...their voices..and...now one of them is dead...pavarotti...the most prominent one...life is so unpredictable siah?
----life...sighz........
Thursday, September 06, 2007
dreams.....
have been having many weird dreams lately... a few are related to ps. i am not very sure why this happens,may be because recently im too stressed. but why ps peopl? i duno also.
so last night and this morning, i had this long dream...okay, the front part i sort of cant remember already. but i remembered that jiayi got wounded, stabbed by someone, but vaguely i rmb is that he tried to save someone by you know...blocking that stab from that person, who's that person i forgot. then he was bleeding, but not very serious, and jy ian and i were together, then i rmb that we went back to sch, sat in a lab or sth, and waited for jy to be treated but jy was still standing up and talking to us, like not very affected by his wound but at times he's groaning in pain..aiya..yeah..very weird right? then after a while a lady came with a wheel chair and took jy away, then suddenly ian and i were walking on the street, and talking, we laughed and joked and...i forgot...what happened...but then all i rmb is that later, i ended up being alone, in a shopping centre i guess, then cheryl was there, then duno why she's pushing me around, as in...i think im either in a wheel chair or a chair with wheels...that can be pushed around, and i rmb very clearly i am not sick or wounded, im juz seating in the chair and being wheeled or pushed around by cheryl, talking to her and laughing, and she was telling me about her japan trip, then actually sth happened...we did many things together but now i forgot, the only thing that i rmb most vivdly is that she wheeled me to a booth, we stopped there, then she said she has some sweets from japan for the people, and if im not wrong, the 'people' here means ps people, cos we stopped at the booth, and it was man by ps people, think i saw yk but definitely there's gq, then cheryl dun wana pass the sweet to gq, so she passed everything to yk and told yk to distribute to others...then she run away happily together with me...erm...as in, im still in the wheel chair, so she like yeah, together with me lor, then on the way she like telling me heng that got yk to help her pass the thing to gq if not she duno how to pass to him...blahblahblah....then yeah...forgot what happened...actually a big part of my dream was in that shopping centre but i juz cant rmb le..
dreams are just so weird...u jump here and jump there, like...really...like suddenly the setting will change the environment and surroundings, but the characters in it dun feel it, they are like...so used to it...hmmmmm...wahahaha...sometimes...i dun wana wake up from my dreams, because...there's no worries inside that world, all ridiculous things are to be seen as normal, no one will fault you for doing anything and also, you dun have to be careful in doing anything...it's juz so care freee.......ahahahaha....i duno..after i came to nj, i've had many weird dreams, and all are related to my best friends. like...
1) yr1, juz came to nj, my OGL told us about the science blog 3rd floor gals toilet ghost story. then very soon i had this dream, that a few of us, were talking about the 3rd floor toilet and then my best friend karen went up to 3rd floor gals toilet and asked us to follow, even though we all were scared, duno why we still followed her, then we went in, and waited, she stayed in the cubicle for a long time and later we heard her talking...to someone, then later she came out, then we saw that there's a green colour ball thingy in that cubicle, then she ordered that thing to fly after me, then i started running, the thing was chasing me from behind. it was very scary in the dream, but when i wake up, i was laughing, duno why i was so scared in the dream, cos when i recall, the green thingy which i assume is the ghost, looks actually wuite cute...sighz....but it did leave a very deep impression on me...i can rmb that thing clearly even though it's like a yr ago...
2)...this one forgot most part of it, only rmb jy wanted to kill and and was holding a knife and running after me...for what reason i forgot and i also forgot the ending.
3) this yr, dreamt of prelima and Alevel lit paper, dreamt that the tcher actually spotted exactly the same qn...i flopped my lit prelim..then the tcher forced me to memorise the model ans for the prelim qns to prepare for Alevel, then when the real As came, i looked at the qn...it was exactly the same as the prelim lit qn...wowwwwwwww
4) dreamt that the guy that i 'an lian' for a long time was walking side by side with me, then he suddenly turned and said" actually i like you" then i was elated, then we like went on a date, played at palyground..aiya...juz had dun together...then at the end i realised that he's actually not the "him" that i like, he's a classmate of mine in yr GP class！ i was like...WTH???!!! that guy was the worse kind that i will ever meet laz...............................-_-''''
sighz......dreams may be cos i watcher "paprika"?????
so last night and this morning, i had this long dream...okay, the front part i sort of cant remember already. but i remembered that jiayi got wounded, stabbed by someone, but vaguely i rmb is that he tried to save someone by you know...blocking that stab from that person, who's that person i forgot. then he was bleeding, but not very serious, and jy ian and i were together, then i rmb that we went back to sch, sat in a lab or sth, and waited for jy to be treated but jy was still standing up and talking to us, like not very affected by his wound but at times he's groaning in pain..aiya..yeah..very weird right? then after a while a lady came with a wheel chair and took jy away, then suddenly ian and i were walking on the street, and talking, we laughed and joked and...i forgot...what happened...but then all i rmb is that later, i ended up being alone, in a shopping centre i guess, then cheryl was there, then duno why she's pushing me around, as in...i think im either in a wheel chair or a chair with wheels...that can be pushed around, and i rmb very clearly i am not sick or wounded, im juz seating in the chair and being wheeled or pushed around by cheryl, talking to her and laughing, and she was telling me about her japan trip, then actually sth happened...we did many things together but now i forgot, the only thing that i rmb most vivdly is that she wheeled me to a booth, we stopped there, then she said she has some sweets from japan for the people, and if im not wrong, the 'people' here means ps people, cos we stopped at the booth, and it was man by ps people, think i saw yk but definitely there's gq, then cheryl dun wana pass the sweet to gq, so she passed everything to yk and told yk to distribute to others...then she run away happily together with me...erm...as in, im still in the wheel chair, so she like yeah, together with me lor, then on the way she like telling me heng that got yk to help her pass the thing to gq if not she duno how to pass to him...blahblahblah....then yeah...forgot what happened...actually a big part of my dream was in that shopping centre but i juz cant rmb le..
dreams are just so weird...u jump here and jump there, like...really...like suddenly the setting will change the environment and surroundings, but the characters in it dun feel it, they are like...so used to it...hmmmmm...wahahaha...sometimes...i dun wana wake up from my dreams, because...there's no worries inside that world, all ridiculous things are to be seen as normal, no one will fault you for doing anything and also, you dun have to be careful in doing anything...it's juz so care freee.......ahahahaha....i duno..after i came to nj, i've had many weird dreams, and all are related to my best friends. like...
1) yr1, juz came to nj, my OGL told us about the science blog 3rd floor gals toilet ghost story. then very soon i had this dream, that a few of us, were talking about the 3rd floor toilet and then my best friend karen went up to 3rd floor gals toilet and asked us to follow, even though we all were scared, duno why we still followed her, then we went in, and waited, she stayed in the cubicle for a long time and later we heard her talking...to someone, then later she came out, then we saw that there's a green colour ball thingy in that cubicle, then she ordered that thing to fly after me, then i started running, the thing was chasing me from behind. it was very scary in the dream, but when i wake up, i was laughing, duno why i was so scared in the dream, cos when i recall, the green thingy which i assume is the ghost, looks actually wuite cute...sighz....but it did leave a very deep impression on me...i can rmb that thing clearly even though it's like a yr ago...
2)...this one forgot most part of it, only rmb jy wanted to kill and and was holding a knife and running after me...for what reason i forgot and i also forgot the ending.
3) this yr, dreamt of prelima and Alevel lit paper, dreamt that the tcher actually spotted exactly the same qn...i flopped my lit prelim..then the tcher forced me to memorise the model ans for the prelim qns to prepare for Alevel, then when the real As came, i looked at the qn...it was exactly the same as the prelim lit qn...wowwwwwwww
4) dreamt that the guy that i 'an lian' for a long time was walking side by side with me, then he suddenly turned and said" actually i like you" then i was elated, then we like went on a date, played at palyground..aiya...juz had dun together...then at the end i realised that he's actually not the "him" that i like, he's a classmate of mine in yr GP class！ i was like...WTH???!!! that guy was the worse kind that i will ever meet laz...............................-_-''''
sighz......dreams may be cos i watcher "paprika"?????
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
busy days
it's been really busy for me these days, had GP prelim, and then focused on art coursework which really drove me crazy, broke down a few times and had really big conflicts with the tchers esp LPG. In the end Ms Lu and Ms Chan had to talk to me, oh well, i dun care, it's juz me, LPG yelled at me for no gd reasons and i wont tolerate such things, i never liked to compare him with mr low because to me, it is almost an insult to mr low as LPG is juz too far away, he's definitely not keen in tching, i really felt like telling him to fuck his ass somewhere else cos i dun wana see him fucking up my results. oh well...he suck and fullstop. no matter what ms lu and ms chan say, i will not forgive him, if not for him, i wont end up in such shit.
also sighz...now i duno what im doing alr...prelim is juz a few days later and i havent started my revision at all, not at all la. sighz.
oh yar cheryl, regarding the boyuan thingy. Cos that day we went for inspire prize giving and si jie asked by to help her take photos for that event. Then when we were waiting for the thing to start, we somehow juz chat and chat then reached u. Then he told me that he duno what's wrong, u are juz weird, daoing everyone in the exco,ehhh wait...let me try to recall..i kind of forget quite a bit...hmmm...i only rmb him saying they all duno why u dao them, and like...got attitude problem, everytime see ppl then not "shuang"...and he kept saying that he and the rest duno what happened...hmmmmmmmmmmm...then he also said sth like u are like the boss...sth like that la...yeah la...
errr......i'll update somemore...when im more free :P
also sighz...now i duno what im doing alr...prelim is juz a few days later and i havent started my revision at all, not at all la. sighz.
oh yar cheryl, regarding the boyuan thingy. Cos that day we went for inspire prize giving and si jie asked by to help her take photos for that event. Then when we were waiting for the thing to start, we somehow juz chat and chat then reached u. Then he told me that he duno what's wrong, u are juz weird, daoing everyone in the exco,ehhh wait...let me try to recall..i kind of forget quite a bit...hmmm...i only rmb him saying they all duno why u dao them, and like...got attitude problem, everytime see ppl then not "shuang"...and he kept saying that he and the rest duno what happened...hmmmmmmmmmmm...then he also said sth like u are like the boss...sth like that la...yeah la...
errr......i'll update somemore...when im more free :P
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