Sometimes i really do feel that i've done too much for people who duno how to appreciate. Like, his birthday, i really spent a lot of time trying to find a present that suits him, and even the wrapping, i went to so many places to try to find and nice box and nice ribbons...and then...bought precious moments card for him and drew cute forever friends bear on the envelope...and all i ever got was a soft whisper of thank you and the benting of the card...seems that he din really see the amount of effort i put in. I did all these despite my geopolitics deadlines. sigh...it's really not like im really expecting something in return...but...it's just the failing of wasted efforts...and the realization of the feeling of futility. guess it's just going to continue like this.
and seriously, i'm having a dilemma right now. the choosing of photog new exco is rather difficult for me. Because...he actually wants to run for president. and well, to be really really honest, he's not a bad candidate in terms of capabilities. however...all of us agree that he's not committed. Well, on a personal level, i really do want him to be the president, i like him, and so of course i would want him to get what he wants. but...i have to be responsible to the club too. I have this feeling that if i agree to put him as the president, then...i might be making the same mistakes as the seniors last year who made li ang the vice pres....ok...let me list down the reasons why i would not support him being the pres and why would...may be it will help me to sort out my messed up brain a little bit...
DO NOT CHOOSE HIM BECAUSE:
1) He's been physically absent from the club since last yr with the excuse of having strings on the same day as photog. however, even aft ps changed it's activity day on mon. he did not appear this yr again. excuses given were, disney night, talentime and SYF...but it cant just go on and on like this, cos things will just accumulate, after this sure have that,there's no end to his strings things.
2) He's not been present in the exco meetings for most of the time except the times when we talk about CT photos which is no longer relevant now. and thus, he's not been really aware of how our exco functions and what we are doing...he kind of only relies on Si Jie's exco meeting minutes. This led him into believing that all chief photographer and chief instructor has to do is to call ppl for duty, organise outings and give critic. and thus he believes that he's done all he's needed to do as an exco member.
3) In reality, his absence resulted in ps exco practically working on a 4 or 5 ppl basis when there's supposed to be 6...
4)He's over confidence in getting the post irritates me and he's starting to form his sphere of influence by asking his friends to run for posts such as vice-pres, darkrm manager and others...which shows he's kind of a person with designs...a thought that really scares me...
5)He has too many other commitments such as saphires scholar...Star H3 programme...and strings...and studies of course...
6) He does not seem to be a photo enthusiast...as in...not really commited...not like ben...
7) Removing him means removing the whole entire bad history away...
8) he will probably not do anything to change the situation but continue to let ps remain in it's present messy state and continue this mess nxt yr...
9) He's been in ps for so long...it's time for him to give others a chance.
10) no one's keen in letting him be the pres.
CHOOSE HIM
1) he's very experienced and skilled
2) He's a nice person at least from what i know even though im starting to get all the bad things abt him
3) Ms chan loves him
4) He's capable, has leadership qualities.
5) I LIKE HIM!
okok...shall really get over this thingy and focus on my studies....whatever the case....we'll see how it goes on the day of the interview
